I truly appreciate the reply. This is the root question that is troubling so many people today. My intention was to see where his frame of mind was and offer some biblical advice. My heart was touched by his earnest admission as I struggled for quite some time to discover some answers. But he's definitely on a good path if he continues to inquire.
This is me, I had an email issue when I first came here. I ended up with 2 accounts. I deleted one account and forgot about this account. I felt bad for leaving and not saying good bye to a few people. I'm still waiting for a response from one.
The reason for the deleting is because I struggle at times and the chat part had got to me when I was at my low point. But I have deleted that as well. Just being here is ok though. I do enjoy writing poems and little stories. While I was under conviction I had suffered for four days, asking for forgiveness. On the fourth day I was in tears asking for forgiveness. Then i felt the weight being lifted. I knew my conviction was over. I have never felt conviction like this and have learned to keep my eyes upon the lord.