I have no Holy Spirit conviction at all.
You have enough knowledge to be making this post. God has given me the opportunity to talk to you. Not a coincidence.
I am indifferent to my sin deep down.
You have just acknowledged that you are aware of the fact that we all have sin. It is poison, even if you do not feel it's devastating effects yet. Taking the antidote is only effective before it destroys you. Do not wait until it is too late. (It is too late when you have died.)
Romans 3:23
“For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;”
John 3:14,15,16
“And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up:”
“That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life.”
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”
All you need to do is to talk to Him and invite Him in to be your Lord and Savior. He is real and is there waiting for you right now.
Revelation 3:20
“Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.”
I am being condemned by the verses about reprobate mind and God hardening whom He wills.
That is Satan trying to keep you away from Jesus. There are even people right here on CC that he is using to spread this lie. Just go to Jesus now.
2 Peter 3:9
“The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.”
Romans 10:13
“For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.”