This is why things, had never worked out with that one.
I will make this as short as possible, it is a very long story. However, everything here is in truth. I am adding it here, so that people can fallow through to as why I had written this particular story as I had. This is why when I thought I had the right one, she was not... the right one and how I began talking to another... which still has me confused but things in life do happen.
I met a woman 4 years ago through a mutual friend. He said she was a very good girl. So, I figured why not to see where it would go. He did not tell me about the lifestyle she was leading. How she adored money, older men who were about 30 years older than her (she is 3 years older than me... go figure.) I asked her to marry me before I found out the truth.
However, in truth the honesty about her came to light one day when she snapped my head off because I needed her to help me go to the doctor. Then a couple weeks after that she told me that, "when I die I better get the money for me and my daughter." I looked at her in sickness. Since that when my health began to change, she had kept me stressed out on a daily basis. Needless to say, I had told her the money if any will go to my brother and other family.
It did not stop there, she had threatened to put a cigarette in the gas tank of my car to destroy it. She had told me she had manipulated her ex for 14 years. I came to realize through a close friend of mine that I had in fact, been dealing with a narcissist.
She would get mad and hit me when I wanted to give her a hug at work. She wanted people to see her, and get attention. She would get mad because i was right about things at the job I was working at, and I got her a job there to. Bad mistake, more drama. After I had my surgery I was soaking in the tub, (sorry for visual) but she asked me if I was going to take the dog out. ( Remember I just had surgery? )
The other, is a sister to my roommate. She had told me on the phone before that anyone can steal me from the one I had been with. I told her she is exatly right. The one I had been with had a guy text her and try to get with her, and she allowed it to happen because she said she was tired of the arguments. However, as I type this the one I had been with is on the phone talking loud enough for me to hear it.
I had known my roommate's sister a lot longer than I had known this one. The one I had been with her and I did have rings yes. I took mine off because I am tired of being a door mat. Now, since I am pulling away even further (even after I had warned her, and warned her) she now sees my value (my truck, my home, and my finances) but when she left me at first, she then saw how important I was to her? lol
Her mom kicked her out of the house, she begged to come back.
My stress levels had been on high because of the one I had been dealing with. She had made me question God and His existence. I do not like that. She then stated that she loves me so much because of how I love God whole heatedly. She told me she wanted to put God first, however her actions do not at any point match her talk.
Like I said, I want someone whose walk, matches their talk.
I had invited her to my blog to write. Needless to say, she had been cussing in it. I removed her completely from it.
I find it romantic for a woman to be able to write with me, and to write the last sentence for me in anything I write. I asked her to do that, and she acted like she was very lost.
However, my roommate's sister I am not for certain how things will go. I still hold onto the fact that in time things will happen. However, I do not blow her phone up, I let her call. I only e-mail her if I am lead to do it to give her some inspirational words to help with her anxiety.
Like I said, I told the one I had been dealing with that i am speaking with someone else. Told her as well, since she tried to replace me and failed, I will eventually replace her and succeed (bad choice of words but this woman does not allow me to talk kindly to her. I hate the way I have to speak to her. In a way it had caused some of my hardened heart.)
My roommate's sister got me to believe again. Even if things do not workout as I hope between me, and the new lady. I have a blessing of knowing God again and that is worth a million heart beats of life.
I love God, and I write for God and I love the way God makes me feel.
That is why I had always had, The Right One.
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