Just recently, I have dug deep into some personal issues I am having in my life which was hiding behind an iron curtain. Perhaps for too long.
I actually believe I don't have anything good to offer the world anymore So I feel pretty much useless. I am stuck in a job which I hate doing but actually live in at. its comfortable, easy, and stable. But at my age ( 56) with hardly any money, I'm feeling too old to start again. But Im miserable. And I just can't see much on the horizon, unless of course God creates open doorways.
But, as faith has it, somehow it just seems enough for now, to have been blessed with little glimpses of what I would like to see. --> When I am not seeing people celebrating life, I deflate like a balloon. And since my current job is not a place of celebrations (I work on ward full of dying people) you can guess that I am already pretty much shrivelled up.
Feasting and dancing, singing and parties, holidays, social events and the likes. These are the kinds of things that make me come alive. As does Appreciating each other from the heart. This also blesses me. But sadly I also don't believe these kinds of recreational or entertainment careers could possibly pay the bills in this day and age unless I had a business. Recessions, inflations, poverty, and wars, coupled with my current my lack of skills, would also add to my sighs.
Well Thats about all i can cough up for now. Thankx for reading. The Lord Worked in me to uncover these things that I like seeing, and being a part of, so it's not all for nothing. All I have to do now is to get comfortable and trust that these qualities He likes to see will be enough to grow in me so I can put them to good use somehow 😊
Mustard seed faith guys....mustard seed faith..... miracles don't always have to be like a sky full of shiny diamonds on first planting.
I actually believe I don't have anything good to offer the world anymore So I feel pretty much useless. I am stuck in a job which I hate doing but actually live in at. its comfortable, easy, and stable. But at my age ( 56) with hardly any money, I'm feeling too old to start again. But Im miserable. And I just can't see much on the horizon, unless of course God creates open doorways.
But, as faith has it, somehow it just seems enough for now, to have been blessed with little glimpses of what I would like to see. --> When I am not seeing people celebrating life, I deflate like a balloon. And since my current job is not a place of celebrations (I work on ward full of dying people) you can guess that I am already pretty much shrivelled up.
Feasting and dancing, singing and parties, holidays, social events and the likes. These are the kinds of things that make me come alive. As does Appreciating each other from the heart. This also blesses me. But sadly I also don't believe these kinds of recreational or entertainment careers could possibly pay the bills in this day and age unless I had a business. Recessions, inflations, poverty, and wars, coupled with my current my lack of skills, would also add to my sighs.
Well Thats about all i can cough up for now. Thankx for reading. The Lord Worked in me to uncover these things that I like seeing, and being a part of, so it's not all for nothing. All I have to do now is to get comfortable and trust that these qualities He likes to see will be enough to grow in me so I can put them to good use somehow 😊
Mustard seed faith guys....mustard seed faith..... miracles don't always have to be like a sky full of shiny diamonds on first planting.
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