I would like intimacy, privacy in sex/lovelife.
One can make love to oneself in many different ways , sexual or non sexual.
There is spiritual sex/lovemaking with someone but without touching eachother physically.
I dont tend to "do it" as it does not give me anything.Possibly tension releif in muscles.
Spiritual lovemaking with partner in love and intimacy even when "apart" would be nice though.
I dont see it as sin , keep a open mind.
There is innocent badness or cheekiness where one does not intend or will to hurt anyone and theres the other kind that Ive experienced where someone does eeeeeeeeeverything to hurt you.
I ackknowledge and stand for my "badness" to God and self the things I truly have done.(shaggy "wasnt me"..

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I will to improve where I have wronged and be genuine in it.
I think trying to treat ones spirit, soul, body well and with respect is good.
If masturbating makes you feel good that can even be healing...Thing is love and lust?
Making it lovemaking or being careful with the lust as it can be very destruktive and hurtful.
And some even use lust for power and control and hurt in soul raping ways.
Something to be careful with.