Groaning in the Spirit (defcon 1)

[Fencepost]

I am somewhat beside myself with grief and pain I truly need help and the advice of other Holy Spirit filled believers. I was saved back in 1994 and have never been a member of a church (building) I am a member of the church (body of Christ) or at least I hope and pray I am. My testimony and my witness seems to have become irrevelant in the day I live in. I just simply can't agree with all the doctrinal points all the different churches teach. So I can't with a clear concience before God say I agree to these things?

I am so alone. I can't think of one person I can my friend. (well of course besides Jesus and my family) I can't relate or find a way to be apart of the church, whether building or body of Christ. I tried to go to church to tonight and the church kicked me out and asked me to live?

The guy on stage was singing some song about idols, and sang you all have idols and worship other gods and you need to lay these down. Well the Holy Spirit was upon me and Jesus wanted me to walk up to the stage and tell the guy point-n-fact that how dare he say i worship other gods or serve them For I serve the Living God in Heaven alone. I asked and pleaded with the Lord to not make me do this. That they are gonna think I am crazy and i want to know people and be friends.

Well, needless to say the Holy Spirit bid me to do this so I can not deny my Lord or my Savior so I did as I was told too. Of Course I was immediately asked to leave, was accused of being a demon or some type of demonic energy. So I got on my knees and prayed for them. They told me if I come back to their church I am not allowed to speak.

Should I go back and simply not speak to them until I am asked, or should I just never go back. Please I need help to understand why these things happen to me. Am I crazy, am I nuts, Jesus tells me no that I am am doing His will and that these things are very important for the salavation of all mankind. Please help me in Christ Jesus.

 

[Deadtosin]

FP, I love you brother, and I hope you consider me your friend. I think you did nothing wrong in following what the Spirit led you to do. These churches are so much about entertainment and long drawn out speeches that they won't even let you raise your hand to ask a question regarding what they spent a paid week deciding to teach the children of the church. I think when you left, you shake your sandals as a testimony against them. I think maybe, just maybe a few of them saw something that made them think. Or maybe gave them courage. I enjoy going to different churches all the time. Til I find something I like about it and then maybe I return. I would say this though. Maybe if the Lord permits you, stay gentle in spirit and when the ceremonies are done, see if the Lord leads you humbly to one or a few of the people. Or maybe He'll bring them to you. The Lord is a mystery my brother and you do not err in following the Lord. Often times I wish I was more forthright and outspoken during certain occassions. But something within me tells me that I can only move around the sheep so long as I don't disrupt the flock. However if the flock is heading toward a ravine it may take loud noises and flailing arms to steer them away. The safe bet is continue following the Lord. I hope He gives you easier tasks brother stay blessed in the spirit you are a lit lamp for all.

 

[damombomb]

Mabe the preacher was talking to someone else telling them,whoever was worshipping other things than God, and in your heart you knew
your God.It was probly not directed to you.I would try another church,But it is wierd he was singing you all have idols!You will find a better
church,it is important to fellowship with one another and to hear the word.
Your friend

 

[Fencepost]

FP, I love you brother, and I hope you consider me your friend. I think you did nothing wrong in following what the Spirit led you to do. These churches are so much about entertainment and long drawn out speeches that they won't even let you raise your hand to ask a question regarding what they spent a paid week deciding to teach the children of the church. I think when you left, you shake your sandals as a testimony against them. I think maybe, just maybe a few of them saw something that made them think. Or maybe gave them courage. I enjoy going to different churches all the time. Til I find something I like about it and then maybe I return. I would say this though. Maybe if the Lord permits you, stay gentle in spirit and when the ceremonies are done, see if the Lord leads you humbly to one or a few of the people. Or maybe He'll bring them to you. The Lord is a mystery my brother and you do not err in following the Lord. Often times I wish I was more forthright and outspoken during certain occassions. But something within me tells me that I can only move around the sheep so long as I don't disrupt the flock. However if the flock is heading toward a ravine it may take loud noises and flailing arms to steer them away. The safe bet is continue following the Lord. I hope He gives you easier tasks brother stay blessed in the spirit you are a lit lamp for all.

Wow, thank you my brother I do consider you my friend. I need to stop saying I have no friends because since I started posting on this website according to me profile i have 10+ friends now. Thank you so much Deadtossin you are truly a inspiritation my brother.

 

[Deadtosin]

what are brothers for?

 

[Fencepost]

Mabe the preacher was talking to someone else telling them,whoever was worshipping other things than God, and in your heart you knew
your God.It was probly not directed to you.I would try another church,But it is wierd he was singing you all have idols!You will find a better
church,it is important to fellowship with one another and to hear the word.
Your friend

Well wasn't the preacher talking was a musician, I had tried to introduce myself to him but he totally ignored me I was alittle angry at him for that. But really said oh well. Thanks for advice i am trying to find where God wants me. Trying to let him lead me. Thanks again damombomb, you seem one of self control and humilty. Praise God

 

[Fencepost]

what are brothers for?

Hehe Brother's keep ya grounded and where two or more are Gathered in Christ Jesus He does bare witness. Thanks again I was beginning to doubt again and think maybe I should just check myself into a mental hospital. Thank you so much.

 

[Deadtosin]

the way I see it brother, the world thinking those who follow God are crazy isn't a new concept. It dates clear back to the days of Moses and probably before. When the world casts doubts on you remember this one thing. ( I read your testimony,) YOU have had undeniable experiences where the Lord has guided you, and you have followed. The way I see it, if you deny any of your experiences than it should stand to reason you should deny all of them. WHICH YOU CANNOT! Praise be to GOD he has given you such a foundation for your faith, therefore my brother, the very strength you have in the knowledge that the Lord guided you EVEN ONCE is all the strength you need to know that He guides you always. Stay in the Lord and don't water the seed of doubt. For doubt was first planted by satan, and continues to be his trick of the trade.

God speed, and if you ever decide to admit yourself to a mental insitution on behalf of what God tells you, than be sure to do it simply to preach the word to those children who dwell behind those walls. But do not ever give creedence to any words that speak doubt of your relationship with the Lord. God bless

 

[pickles]

How sad that some willingly speak judgement upon others like this, thankyou Jesus that you listened to His spirit and spoke to this.
Jesus will also bring you to the will of God Our Father and where. Cotinue to rest in Jesus, He never fails.
You are in my prayers in Jesus that you will e given a good church body to worship in.

God bless.
pickles

 

[Fencepost]

How sad that some willingly speak judgement upon others like this, thankyou Jesus that you listened to His spirit and spoke to this.
Jesus will also bring you to the will of God Our Father and where. Cotinue to rest in Jesus, He never fails.
You are in my prayers in Jesus that you will e given a good church body to worship in.

God bless.
pickles

Wow, thank you very much pickles thank you so much for your witness thank you I have been crying all evening over this. thank you

 

[Fencepost]

I am somewhat beside myself with grief and pain I truly need help and the advice of other Holy Spirit filled believers. I was saved back in 1994 and have never been a member of a church (building) I am a member of the church (body of Christ) or at least I hope and pray I am. My testimony and my witness seems to have become irrevelant in the day I live in. I just simply can't agree with all the doctrinal points all the different churches teach. So I can't with a clear concience before God say I agree to these things?

I am so alone. I can't think of one person I can my friend. (well of course besides Jesus and my family) I can't relate or find a way to be apart of the church, whether building or body of Christ. I tried to go to church to tonight and the church kicked me out and asked me to live?

The guy on stage was singing some song about idols, and sang you all have idols and worship other gods and you need to lay these down. Well the Holy Spirit was upon me and Jesus wanted me to walk up to the stage and tell the guy point-n-fact that how dare he say i worship other gods or serve them For I serve the Living God in Heaven alone. I asked and pleaded with the Lord to not make me do this. That they are gonna think I am crazy and i want to know people and be friends.

Well, needless to say the Holy Spirit bid me to do this so I can not deny my Lord or my Savior so I did as I was told too. Of Course I was immediately asked to leave, was accused of being a demon or some type of demonic energy. So I got on my knees and prayed for them. They told me if I come back to their church I am not allowed to speak.

Should I go back and simply not speak to them until I am asked, or should I just never go back. Please I need help to understand why these things happen to me. Am I crazy, am I nuts, Jesus tells me no that I am am doing His will and that these things are very important for the salavation of all mankind. Please help me in Christ Jesus.

Well the Lord has revealed to me that while yes, was right to make a stand, at the same time my defiance to authority is a huge issue I need to deal with. In order to be complete in His will and founded in his word.