I want to commit Suicide very soon

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I think I might get pills tomorrow to finish it my life. I have a few problems to cause this obviously. Maybe I'll hang my self.
1. dyslexia- I had it practically my whole life
2. I have no one(please don't tell me there's someone who loves me, you can still be loved by someone but not have a relationship) and nothing and I can't go any where, always struggling
3. social fear
4. Schizophrenia
5. Paranoia
 
akirarene said:
I think I might get pills tomorrow to finish it my life. I have a few problems to cause this obviously. Maybe I'll hang my self.
1. dyslexia- I had it practically my whole life
2. I have no one(please don't tell me there's someone who loves me, you can still be loved by someone but not have a relationship) and nothing and I can't go any where, always struggling
3. social fear
4. Schizophrenia
5. Paranoia
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Holy smokes akirarene; I just opened my lap top on cc and your message was staring me right in the face. I am so sorry that you have suffered life this way. I don't fully understand dyslexia. I mean, I've heard the definition, but I don't know it personally. I personally know 3, 4, and 5. After many years of therapy, I've learned to live life by using tools that helped me through ( and meds). Number 2 is as difficult as all the others put together. Even tho you might tend to keep to yourself, I'm wondering how strong your friends are. If there is anything you'd like for your message to do for you, please let your friends know. And I'm saying that because you've given this message here, there are people here who know a little bit about what it's like. That's why some people come to this site; because they have a need for someone to talk with.

I hope you are able to find what it is your looking for..., meaningful friends.

I will certain pray for you; that the things you need today will be met. Please don't forget to pray. In our darkest hour, prayer is the one thing that draws our Heavenly Father's attention.
 
Jesus wrap your loving arms around your child she needs your perfect love that drives out fear. Fill her with understanding of how big your love is for her, So she may be perfected in your love Jesus.

1 John 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear: because fear has torment. He that fears is not made perfect in love.
 
Suicide doesn't solve problems Akirarene it just creates them for everyone else around you. You should just realize that you are not alone and that there's people that do care about you. Reading Scripture and prayer is essential, and talking to your elders in your Church is something that you should really look into. I will be praying for you <3
 
Well as already said suicide doesn't solve anything, but just brings more trouble, the pain of having a lot of burdens is huge, and can never be carried alone, that I know. Jesus died on that cross to free you from all pain if you let Him. Just go before Him and ask Him to be your comfort and to take away your pain, surrender to His will because His will will lead you to an eternity with Him, Jesus didn't say it would be easy but He did say He would see you through the storm! Come to Jesus and live!
 
I was suicidal once in my life- only to realize that everything shall pass and that no love in this world is greater than God's. The fact that you actually wrote this here shows that a part of you still has faith, hope and love. I pray that God brings this out and shines His light through you, revealing your true calling and purpose in life. This too shall pass sweetie. :)
 
Jesus you are the answer to all of our concerns. You have promised in your word, 2 Timothy1:7, For God has not given us a Spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind. My prayer for you today is that you will understand and believe God's promises to you. Amen.
 
What a dreadful time it must be for you, and I'm glad you've posted on here... although we may not know you face to face we certainly do care and to not have you around would be a great loss!

I'm not going to bother with waffling on about religious stuff right now as I think practical stuff is the key to pushing through this (even though God plays a huge part in how things pan out eventually)

I speak from experience as I myself have had some very close calls to ending my life aswell ... andthe things that I have found that help me is having something to do... something to keep my hands and mind busy when I have wanted to hurt myself or end it all... sometimes suicide can be a fleeting thought and it will pass, it will only linger around if you let it... it helps to occupy your mind until the thought has gone if that makes sense... my emergency tool I'd take avantage of when nobody was around especially late at night was baking then giving it to other people in the morning... it helped me reach out to others and it gave me a purpose...

It also helps to plan and organise your day... step by step... little by little (e.g I'm going to get up and have a shower, when I've finished my shower I'm going to eat some breakfast, then I'm going to put a load of washing on etc)... looking at an entire day is daunting! so breaking it down into little bits and tackling that is really beneficial! Take each day as it comes... soon that day becomes a week, then a month... etc. and you can look back on it and feel like you've tacked mount everest... because you have!

Please be safe tonight and do something to keep yourself occupied if you're unable to sleep...

I would also strongly advise you to reach out and see a doctor... I know how daunting that seems... but they have spent a lot of money and have studied for many years to get to where they are now professionally, they wouldn't do that if they didn't care about you...

I would like to let you know, that although I don't know you personally I do very much care about you... you are a very special person and it truly would be a great loss to not have you around...

Just know that although many of us are miles away we love you and care about you... and if we could we most certainly would sit with you at this time...

The best we can do from where we are is pray for you and stand with you in spirit... You WILL get through this with victory!

Kia Kaha! (stand tall, stay strong)

And God Bless

p.s. please keep us updated on how things are going
 
akirarene said:
I think I might get pills tomorrow to finish it my life. I have a few problems to cause this obviously. Maybe I'll hang my self.
1. dyslexia- I had it practically my whole life
2. I have no one(please don't tell me there's someone who loves me, you can still be loved by someone but not have a relationship) and nothing and I can't go any where, always struggling
3. social fear
4. Schizophrenia
5. Paranoia
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Stop! My great-grand-father committed sucide, my grand-father committed sucide. STOP! that Ole way of thinking. I know for a fact your wrong I tried to kill myself at 16..Stop at least read my testimony first. http://christianchat.com/testimonies/30116-fenceposts-life-story.html Don't let IT rule your life. Take the power back in Christ Jesus. Give Jesus your life let HIM have the helm for awhile. Please Lord Jesus come upon AKIRARENE mightly. Teach her your will, your love, your patience. Lord please oh MIGHTY LIVING GOD make her not a lost one..Waken your light, your truth within her.. Lord OH GOD please help this young one.. LORD come upon her DELIVER HER Lord come upon her and set her free in Christ Jesus! Cover her in your precious blood and set her free oh dear lord. OMG HELP HER! in Jesus's name!
 
Praying in Jesus for you, asking Jesus to show you the beautiful creation He loves, that you are.
Praing that the joy, delight and love of Jesus will fill you overflowing.

Huge hugs and God bless.
pickles
 
akirarene said:
I think I might get pills tomorrow to finish it my life. I have a few problems to cause this obviously. Maybe I'll hang my self.
1. dyslexia- I had it practically my whole life
2. I have no one(please don't tell me there's someone who loves me, you can still be loved by someone but not have a relationship) and nothing and I can't go any where, always struggling
3. social fear
4. Schizophrenia
5. Paranoia
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Hello!!!!! akirarene... IUt's the isolation that is amplifying all your very valid concerns, but all, solvable, or at least can reduce to manageable level that provides, paece, contentment, restores hope for you! That is the first thing you need to attack back!... Try next few weeks, getting in touch with social service agencies, or web sites that can help address your dyslexia... Many people, successful people, have learned to treat, work around that problem, live happily, find out how! ( ansd even through that interction of discovering, you will gain from contact with compassionate others...)
Also reccommend you find a good, Biblical obedient, Christ-centered church, contact, see if can hitch a Sunday ride there with other memebers, talk with some Christian ( not secular) counselors... All will help... Hang on, until you are able to regain balance, "center", then start making moves, regain your energy, as climb out of screaming "solitairy", and again engage, good, clean, hopeful, caring, capable, Christian people.You'll regain and recover, keep the faithdon't do anything under cloud of depression,oppression,, and as soon as "stable" again, start xseeking, sowing seeds to help regain what satan is trying to steal-your life! In Christ, V Smith
 
I no how u feel akirarene.. But guess whot? I have a good news for you.do u know dat jesus is the same yersterday, today and forever? And he still a miracle worker..al u nid is deliverance and healing.breakthrough for the salvation of your soul.i have seen a cripple walk,the demonic possessd freed,hiv/aids healed .cancer healled right at my very own eyes.at the synagogue church of all nations.so ur problem is little b4 jesus.cus healing comes frm him and wit God al tings r possible...pls email me [email protected] take pills pls .there is hope .
 
Akirarene, How are you doing?
Parying in Jesus still for you.

God bless.
pickles
 
I'm a Pastor in a small, but everyone is very serious about Jesus. Are you serious about Jesus? I have myself in my past have had struggles with the very string desire to be dead! just be dead and kill the pain, so much pain in life, how can I take it EVERYDAY. there is no glory in the dead, or death. Have you seen "faces of death?" not for the weak. nor is hell. Now, I have studied the Bible for many years and I found that nowhere in it does it say you will go to hell if you commit sewrside. I know all of anyone who sees this will want to yell at me, but it's true none the less. Paul said to live is Christ, and to die is gain. Did Jesus himself commit suicide by roman? like suicide by cop? no. He said He lays down His life that HE MIGHT RISE IT UP AGAIN, can you raise your life from the dead Pickles? I think not, we all need help with pain, their are no fast fixes, sorry about that. I have dexlexia too, and I have no family members who are alive, I have few friends, and sometimes no friends at all. I have diabetes, and a c omplication from that that makesmy feet hurt so bad, I am on right now heavy narcotic pain meds just to think a rational thought. it's all in the Bible though, our answers that is. look if you care to, and tell me what you think.
 
Akirarene,

Ask jesus into your heart, he is there waiting beside you. He knows even the tiniest sparrow as it falls. Open your heart and ask him in he wants to be your comfort and your guide.
Dear Lord, please comfort this child of yours and show them your strength, your love, let them see that they are NOT ALONE!
 
Father GOD, I pray that you help this person to see the beautiful person they are. Please open their eyes to your love and mercy that is new every day. In Jesus holy name I pray amen.
 
Dear Sister, please don't ! There is a reason God put

you here on this earth at this time. Your life may seem not worth living now, but only God knows what is in your future.

My life fell apart about 7 years ago. I broke my back, had a nervous breakdown, lost my wife of 20 years and couldn't even see my two boys. I tried to kill myself. Obviously I was not sucessful. Thank God !!! I had surgery on my back, my wife took me back. Now my wife of nearly 30 years and I have a wonderful life. I am still disabled, but both of my boys have married wonderful girls and I am looking forward to holding my grandchildren.

I live in severe pain from many different degerative processes, emphysema and a heart condition. I sometimes feel like I have life so tough, then I remember my Dad who has been fighting leuchemia for 7 years and he is turning 85 this week.

I think about the 11 million people in Africa who don't have any food, water, shelter or even safety. I heard about one woman who started walking many miles in the schorching heat with 6 children to get to a place she had heard had food and water. When she finally got there, she only had one child with her, the other five had died on the way. Can you imagine her pain?

Dear sister, I'm sure you are hurting, but you are not alone, many people are hurting, forget yourself just for a moment and find someone who could use your prayer.

God is waiting for you to ask Him to take your pain away. He needs you to be tough when everything is falling apart. "you will be safe in His arms". It is a wonderful song, but also very true. Don't give up on God, as He loves you and so do all of your Brothers and Sisters here on CC.

I pray dear Lord, lay your hands upon our Sister who is hurting, let her feel your love and healing power flow over and through her. I pray dear Lord lift her up, take away her pain, heal her physically, mentally and spiritually, grant her peace, tranquility and joy, in Jesus name, Amen.

Love in Jesus Christ
brother Gary
akirarene said:
I think I might get pills tomorrow to finish it my life. I have a few problems to cause this obviously. Maybe I'll hang my self.
1. dyslexia- I had it practically my whole life
2. I have no one(please don't tell me there's someone who loves me, you can still be loved by someone but not have a relationship) and nothing and I can't go any where, always struggling
3. social fear
4. Schizophrenia
5. Paranoia
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whats the rush? we all die. I promise you that you will die. Whether you want to or not. They say that there are only 2 absolute guarantees (death and taxes) well, I have had jobs that paid under the table, so I've avoided taxes before, but none of us will avoid death. Do you care for nobody? have you ever met anyone in your life? if you have ever had the experience of not knowing someone and then knowing someone then you are aware that even if you have nobody now that doesn't mean you'll have nobody tomorrow. When you look at the future and think "it seems so long and far away. Lifes troubles surround me!" you are looking at a fiction. Because you are believing you have many years left on your life. Nobody knows when their time will be up. You may die on the way to buy your pills. For what? are you scared of a little pain? what are you scared of? what if death isnt' a way to peace. What if death is far worse than any pain you've ever had in life and what if it lasts forever? are you really trying to rush toward that? what if you living for another week would save the life of a child who otherwise wouldn't have had anyone there to save them? is that weeks pain too much for the sake of an innocent child? Its all in perspective. I really hope you reconsider before you learn the hard way. God bless
 
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