Some decisions are tough

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My brain feels like it is going to break.

 

[enril]

My brain feels like it is going to break.

you're not alone. I have been regressing bad the last few days. today I almost ried to kill myself.. i have become mentally unstable. but i was doing good a week ago. what happened?

 

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you're not alone. I have been regressing bad the last few days. today I almost ried to kill myself.. i have become mentally unstable. but i was doing good a week ago. what happened?

Basically, I have ask for God’s guidance for a relationship currently in but I feel like being push away instead so she can have some space. An old friend who happens to be a woman emailed me today, trying to slip back into my life after I told her to never contact me again about 6 months ago. I told her again tonight to respect my boundaries and leave me alone and I also told my girlfriend about it, and now I just feel like I’m overwhelmed by a spiritual attack. So now I’m just having time for myself, so hopefully peace will come back to me. I’m no expert in relationships. I barely know how they work.

 

[crmvet]

Philippians 4:6-7

 

[enril]

Basically, I have ask for God’s guidance for a relationship currently in but I feel like being push away instead so she can have some space. An old friend who happens to be a woman emailed me today, trying to slip back into my life after I told her to never contact me again about 6 months ago. I told her again tonight to respect my boundaries and leave me alone and I also told my girlfriend about it, and now I just feel like I’m overwhelmed by a spiritual attack. So now I’m just having time for myself, so hopefully peace will come back to me. I’m no expert in relationships. I barely know how they work.

Praying for you.

I have no idea how they work either. like any of them.

 

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Philippians 4:6-7

Thank you crmvet

 

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Praying for you.

I have no idea how they work either. like any of them.

Thank you, I thought I had a decent relationship with God. Maybe I dont…

 

[enril]

Philippians 4:6-7

and the peace of God, which passes all understanding...

 

[enril]

Thank you, I thought I had a decent relationship with God. Maybe I dont…

hey, it's all faith. if you belive, you do, the relationship part is how much you spend with him. which... I need to get into.

 

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hey, it's all faith. if you belive, you do, the relationship part is how much you spend with him. which... I need to get into.

maybe I lost my faith. I literally spend every day with Him and it just doesn’t seem to be enough

 

[enril]

maybe I lost my faith. I literally spend every day with Him and it just doesn’t seem to be enough

maybe. if you did, you probably will feel empty, purposeless. I did.

 

[enril]

maybe I lost my faith. I literally spend every day with Him and it just doesn’t seem to be enough

well, you'll know.

 

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maybe. if you did, you probably will feel empty, purposeless. I did.

well I don’t feel empty, just kinda waiting to have peace in my prefrontal cortex. I do have an appointment in 12 hours to change my psych meds, so maybe that’ll help.

 

[enril]

you and I, we are quite similar in these respects. I don't know how to help you. for me I went dark for 3 years, but that is not ideal. find people you can trust, and share. sharing is the key.

 

[CarriePie]

Thank you, I thought I had a decent relationship with God. Maybe I dont…

Forgive me for jumping in here, but from my viewpoint (for what it's worth) you do have a decent relationship with God. Sometimes the pain of circumstances bears heavily on the heart. Sometimes to a point it feels unbearable.

Our relationship with God is something we all have to work on daily and it's often not easy. If there are any who claim it's easy, I don't know what manner of a person they are.

Be joyful in hope. Be patient in distress. Be faithful in prayer. (I'm having Romans 12:12 in mind.)

 

[enril]

well I don’t feel empty, just kinda waiting to have peace in my prefrontal cortex. I do have an appointment in 12 hours to change my psych meds, so maybe that’ll help.

maybe. but in my experience,
"if you have peace, you simply haven't found the thing that's tyring to kill you." -spathiwa
as in, there is no peace.

 

[seantspence]

Forgive me for jumping in here, but from my viewpoint (for what it's worth) you do have a decent relationship with God. Sometimes the pain of circumstances bears heavily on the heart. Sometimes to a point it feels unbearable.

Our relationship with God is something we all have to work on daily and it's often not easy. If there are any who claim it's easy, I don't know what manner of a person they are.

Be joyful in hope. Be patient in distress. Be faithful in prayer. (I'm having Romans 12:12 in mind.)

I’ll check out Roman’s 12:12. I just don’t want to feel like I’m fighting spiritual warfare right now but it seems like that is what is happening. At least for me.

 

[enril]

Forgive me for jumping in here, but from my viewpoint (for what it's worth) you do have a decent relationship with God. Sometimes the pain of circumstances bears heavily on the heart. Sometimes to a point it feels unbearable.

Our relationship with God is something we all have to work on daily and it's often not easy. If there are any who claim it's easy, I don't know what manner of a person they are.

Be joyful in hope. Be patient in distress. Be faithful in prayer. (I'm having Romans 12:12 in mind.)

yep,

yep.
someone who is'nt working on it

yep.

 

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maybe. but in my experience,
"if you have peace, you simply haven't found the thing that's tyring to kill you." -spathiwa
as in, there is no peace.

maybe I did find the thing that is trying to kill me. I always win spiritual warfare though

 

[enril]

I’ll check out Roman’s 12:12. I just don’t want to feel like I’m fighting spiritual warfare right now but it seems like that is what is happening. At least for me.

nah. not warfare. a duel between light and darkness.