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[ForgiveMeGod]

Maybe it's 'cause I'm old lolol

I think it’s cause you had barely any sleep last night

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

Maybe it's 'cause I'm old lolol

Your sleep schedule, since I’ve known you hasn’t been the greatest. I’m not sure if I am a bad influence or we make bad decisions together, cause my sleep schedule has been horrible for like this whole year.

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

I wouldn't doubt it if you are a good singer. You have a very nice voice!

Yes, being in a fallen world nothing goes smoothly. But, a relationship shouldn't be any more miserable than anything else in life. If it is than it needs worked on or it's not the right relationship for you. Also, I don't think a relationship should include any kind of abuse, including psychological. I've found that the Lord has protected me many times in my life when it comes to Him pushing me away from bad relationships or potentially bad ones. Seeking His guidance is paramount.

I didn't tell you what happened with my order today. I added a portion of a cherry pie from the bakery to my order. They were out of pie portions. I ended up with a whole cherry pie, she still managed to only charge me for a pie portion. So, I've got plenty of cherry pie. Wish I could share.

You really lucked out on that portion deal

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

Maybe it's 'cause I'm old lolol

I feel like I’m speedy Gonzalez at typing tonight. Maybe if you were a Cisco employee you would type faster.

My mom’s ex contacted me on Facebook to see how I,was doing and catch up, and I’ve never, ever had someone else text me around the same speed that I can text, it was out of this world. He is like 60, texting like the popular girl at school. I totally forgot he was a tech nerd. We used to play video games together all the time.

Even though he was a speed dealer back then, he sure turned his life around. Owns a house, married with kids.

 

[CarriePie]

Just right before I deleted my last profile, I felt like I was being attacked by everyone here, without them knowing they were. I also did a lot of upset posting while that was happening to try and learn about what was going on. When you told me that if we separated again, that it would be final. I took that very literally. So I deleted my profile and left, but then I thought that I really need fellowship in my life. So I just created a new name and rejoined, so I can at least fellowship again, which I need in my life. I really hope by coming back, that I’m not teaching you that that is okay.

I love Cherry pie but only my aunts cherry pie. No one makes it like hers. Hers is like a cherry crumble pie.

You got to try pumpkin cheesecake if you are a cheesecake fan. I use to not be but now, I like cheesecake over regular cake, pie and ice cream cake.

Well, I'm being cautious at this point in time. I feel like I'm being pleasant, but also cautious. You made a thread on this site on my birthday that slammed me, that left me feeling a certain way about things. More threads/posts were made. It was a blow to me, that was fortunately soothed by another member who encouraged me.

The reason I said "final" was because you said that you were not attracted to me. So, I thought what's the point? Why be in a relationship with someone who is not attracted to you. And you said you didn't want to be in a relationship with someone you aren't attracted to. So, it was really mutual as far things being "final."

Anyway, that's what was going on at the time.

Your sleep schedule, since I’ve known you hasn’t been the greatest. I’m not sure if I am a bad influence or we make bad decisions together, cause my sleep schedule has been horrible for like this whole year.

My sleep schedule is not your fault. I've had a bad sleep schedule since dad passed away. Actually, I've never really had a good sleep schedule, but it's gotten much worse at the start of grief.

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

Well, I'm being cautious at this point in time. I feel like I'm being pleasant, but also cautious. You made a thread on this site on my birthday that slammed me, that left me feeling a certain way about things. More threads/posts were made. It was a blow to me, that was fortunately soothed by another member who encouraged me.

The reason I said "final" was because you said that you were not attracted to me. So, I thought what's the point? Why be in a relationship with someone who is not attracted to you. And you said you didn't want to be in a relationship with someone you aren't attracted to. So, it was really mutual as far things being "final."

Anyway, that's what was going on at the time.



My sleep schedule is not your fault. I've had a bad sleep schedule since dad passed away. Actually, I've never really had a good sleep schedule, but it's gotten much worse at the start of grief.

I think I bring up those points cause I want to tell you how it went from my perspective.

Your comforting spirit is what really soothes me. i don’t have a great relationship with my mom, so your spirit really comforts me.

My sleep schedule has been getting worse, the more my medication is lowered.

 

[CarriePie]

I really hope by coming back, that I’m not teaching you that that is okay.

I'm not sure what you mean here...what is that's not okay?

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

Well, I'm being cautious at this point in time. I feel like I'm being pleasant, but also cautious. You made a thread on this site on my birthday that slammed me, that left me feeling a certain way about things. More threads/posts were made. It was a blow to me, that was fortunately soothed by another member who encouraged me.

The reason I said "final" was because you said that you were not attracted to me. So, I thought what's the point? Why be in a relationship with someone who is not attracted to you. And you said you didn't want to be in a relationship with someone you aren't attracted to. So, it was really mutual as far things being "final."

Anyway, that's what was going on at the time.



My sleep schedule is not your fault. I've had a bad sleep schedule since dad passed away. Actually, I've never really had a good sleep schedule, but it's gotten much worse at the start of grief.

i have to reveal something that I hope you won’t get mad at me for but when you told me to delete all of your emails, for some reason I forgot how to delete them at the time and I archived all of them…..……but just for respect for you, I didn’t look at any of them.

 

[CarriePie]

i have to reveal something that I hope you won’t get mad at me for but when you told me to delete all of your emails, for some reason I forgot how to delete them at the time and I archived all of them…..……but just for respect for you, I didn’t look at any of them.

I don't remember telling you to delete the emails. I don't really have a problem with emails/messages. It was my pictures that I told you to delete. The reason being that you said you are not physically attracted to me, so I felt it best that my pics be deleted. Emails don't bother me.

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

I'm not sure what you mean here...what is that's not okay?

Saying it’s final. We talked all that time. I wouldn’t have talked to you all those days and stayed up all those nights if I didn’t think something of you.

i do understand by your last post, that there was no point in continuing at that time. Due to the words that were said though. So I get that. I guess I didn’t know there would be so much pain afterward.

 

[CarriePie]

i do understand by your last post, that there was no point in continuing at that time. Due to the words that were said though. So I get that. I guess I didn’t know there would be so much pain afterward.

You made the choice to end things, which is your right.
I felt like some of your accusatory threads on this site afterwards were uncalled for though. Fortunately, someone here put my self esteem back together.
So, I absolutely have every right to be cautious at this point in time. I proceed very carefully, because I certainly don't want to go through that again.

Saying it’s final. We talked all that time. I wouldn’t have talked to you all those days and stayed up all those nights if I didn’t think something of you.

Likewise. It's always good to be careful though.

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

You made the choice to end things, which is your right.
I felt like some of your accusatory threads on this site afterwards were uncalled for though. Fortunately, someone here put my self esteem back together.
So, I absolutely have every right to be cautious at this point in time. I proceed very carefully, because I certainly don't want to go through that again.



Likewise. It's always good to be careful though.

i think I was just trying to guard myself. I have learned that having boundaries makes for healthy relationships. That way couples aren’t spending all day every day together and some work can be done.

For a while I was creating songs every day. So when we started talking, apart of me thought that I couldn’t manage my time properly. I felt like I absolutely loved the comfort and love I was receiving from you and you were receiving from me.

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

You made the choice to end things, which is your right.
I felt like some of your accusatory threads on this site afterwards were uncalled for though. Fortunately, someone here put my self esteem back together.
So, I absolutely have every right to be cautious at this point in time. I proceed very carefully, because I certainly don't want to go through that again.



Likewise. It's always good to be careful though.

It’s funny: I just went on Facebook and it said “ I heard your prayer, trust in God’s timing.” Sometimes I feel like God is talking to me in the moment.

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

You made the choice to end things, which is your right.
I felt like some of your accusatory threads on this site afterwards were uncalled for though. Fortunately, someone here put my self esteem back together.
So, I absolutely have every right to be cautious at this point in time. I proceed very carefully, because I certainly don't want to go through that again.



Likewise. It's always good to be careful though.

Sometimes I’m my own worse enemy…

 

[CarriePie]

i think I was just trying to guard myself. I have learned that having boundaries makes for healthy relationships. That way couples aren’t spending all day every day together and some work can be done.

For a while I was creating songs every day. So when we started talking, apart of me thought that I couldn’t manage my time properly. I felt like I absolutely loved the comfort and love I was receiving from you and you were receiving from me.

Being accusatory toward me is not healthy. Especially when I'm not able to defend myself on a personal level...it's just thrown out to the public. In that case, I definitely wanted to set boundaries...and I wanted to set them far from you. You picked my birthday to slam me. To me that seemed like a low blow. This is why I have to proceed very cautiously from now on with you. Pleasantly, but cautiously. That's the reality of things.

I had said multiple times that you should take all the time you need for things you want to do and need to do.

We are both free individuals. I am assuming we are feeling out the situation again. In my viewpoint, we need to take our time and see how we feel about things for a while.

 

[CarriePie]

Sometimes I’m my own worse enemy…

Nice! I haven't listened to that in a while.

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

Being accusatory toward me is not healthy. Especially when I'm not able to defend myself on a personal level...it's just thrown out to the public. In that case, I definitely wanted to set boundaries...and I wanted to set them far from you. You picked my birthday to slam me. To me that seemed like a low blow. This is why I have to proceed very cautiously from now on with you. Pleasantly, but cautiously. That's the reality of things.

I had said multiple times that you should take all the time you need for things you want to do and need to do.

We are both free individuals. I am assuming we are feeling out the situation again. In my viewpoint, we need to take our time and see how we feel about things for a while.

That makes sense.

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

Nice! I haven't listened to that in a while.

I used to go to the bar they owned all the time in downtown Fullerton. It was the hot spot for rock and roll lovers in that area.

i never really met anyone there but I had a friend who I’d go there with sometimes and he would literally talk to almost every girl there. I was reserved and just talked to my other friends who were there.

 

[CarriePie]

I'm not trying to make difficulties, I'm just trying to be careful.

 

[ForgiveMeGod]

Nice! I haven't listened to that in a while.

One time I walked past a group of girls and they thought I was gay cause I wouldn’t approach them. Just odd.