I am going to have to belive what God said right in the Ten Commandments
Exo 20:6 but showing mercy to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My commandments.
You are in constant conflict with Paul.
Romans 3:19-20
Now we know that whatever the Law says,
it speaks to those who are under the Law, so that every mouth may
be closed and all the world may become accountable to God; because by the works of the Law none of mankind
will be justified in His sight; for through the Law comes knowledge of sin.
No one is righteous, no one ever kept the law and even Moses got the boot.
No one can obey the sabbath, the letter of the law, because your flesh (thoughts) will always oppose
the written law. We all have the inner conflict between the law of the flesh, and the law of Christ in
our mind.
The sabbath rest (written law) can never be a joy for you to obey.
The sabbath is the yoke of slavery.