Spiritual Battle for my mind

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jacko

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I was attacked spiritually yesterday and was not able to control my mind for about 5 minutes yesterday. I could barely breath and a feeling of hopeless came over me for something so trivial (whistlkng and no sound coming out) I knew it wasn't from my mind. The thoughts of how am i going to be able to live occurred to me because literally I could not think.

I was so confused as to what I was feeling, and having a real life panic attack, I walked outside in the pajamas at 10:30 PM at night to get some cold air, because I was so confused as to what was going on. By then I knew demons were attacking me as I was on day 2 of fasting and giving up dinner for Lent. I was able to cast out the evil spirit controlling my mind in the name of Jesus after 2 minutes of intesne prayer. While my mind was clear, the fear lingured on for quite a bit. Right after, I just knew I had to pray and be in the word, so I prayed and worshipped God fervently for about 1.5 hours or so and then went to bed. Thank God the Lord protected me after and the fear is gone this morning.

Please keep me in your prayers.
 
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jacko said:
I was attacked spiritually yesterday and was not able to control my mind for about 5 minutes yesterday. I could barely breath and a feeling of hopeless came over me for something so trivial (whistlkng and no sound coming out) I knew it wasn't from my mind. The thoughts of how am i going to be able to live occurred to me because literally I could not think.

I was so confused as to what I was feeling, and having a real life panic attack, I walked outside in the pajamas at 10:30 PM at night to get some cold air, because I was so confused as to what was going on. By then I knew demons were attacking me as I was on day 2 of fasting and giving up dinner for Lent. I was able to cast out the evil spirit controlling my mind in the name of Jesus after 2 minutes of intesne prayer. While my mind was clear, the fear lingured on for quite a bit. Right after, I just knew I had to pray and be in the word, so I prayed and worshipped God fervently for about 1.5 hours or so and then went to bed. Thank God the Lord protected me after and the fear is gone this morning.

Please keep me in your prayers.
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Not to minimize your situation but I woke up a few weeks ago and literally thought I was dying. I thought maybe it was some type of prescription drug overdose or something, or lack of medication. I felt my mind collapsing on itself, so I immediately grabbed my medications, took them and ran to the fridge to drink milk and eat as much as I could, scared the crap out of me and at the same time, I didn't feel any pain and if it was my time to go, so be it but I fought with everything I could to live. I didn't think about anyone else but myself. I wanted to live.

Thankfully, we just switched all my doses around this week. My new nurse practitioner got me off of a weight gaining med, which was a 2nd anti-psychotic that I shouldn't have been taking cause it's not good to mix anti-psychotics. the funny thing is, my previous nurse practitioner prescribed me Seroquel, the weight gaining prescription med, even though when I first got that practitioner, he said we are going to get me off of all the weight gain meds. Funny how they say "i'm going to get you on non weight gaining meds" the first day you see them, and then months later, they are prescribing you weight gain prescriptions. I wonder if it'll be like that with the new nurse practitioner. They both work at the same practice.

Still getting use to the new dosages and meds. I think 3 things changed and 2 more things we added as well, that are non psychiatric.

But back to your situation, I use to get spiritual warfare all the time. Still do but not as much.

Last summer it was bad. So many times it was so bad that I had to call the suicide hotline like 12 times that summer. Ever since Fall hit, I haven't had a suicidal thought since. By the way, the suicide hotline is pointless as a Christian. It's better to just fellowship with believers that it is to call that pointless hotline.

I found a Christian text hotline; so I entered the number and no one reach out for a long time, so I responded with: "Is this a God simulator? It's like really having a one on one with Him." cause no voice is speaking back. I thought it was funny to leave that message for who ever missed it. My sense of humor is kinda dark.

I pray that the demons leave your presence Jacko. I pray that a peaceful comforting presence takes all fear from your mind. It would probably be more helpful if I gave you some scripture, instead of me writing in 2025 southern Californian English.
 
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ATSTD said:
Not to minimize your situation but I woke up a few weeks ago and literally thought I was dying. I thought maybe it was some type of prescription drug overdose or something, or lack of medication. I felt my mind collapsing on itself, so I immediately grabbed my medications, took them and ran to the fridge to drink milk and eat as much as I could, scared the crap out of me and at the same time, I didn't feel any pain and if it was my time to go, so be it but I fought with everything I could to live. I didn't think about anyone else but myself. I wanted to live.

Thankfully, we just switched all my doses around this week. My new nurse practitioner got me off of a weight gaining med, which was a 2nd anti-psychotic that I shouldn't have been taking cause it's not good to mix anti-psychotics. the funny thing is, my previous nurse practitioner prescribed me Seroquel, the weight gaining prescription med, even though when I first got that practitioner, he said we are going to get me off of all the weight gain meds. Funny how they say "i'm going to get you on non weight gaining meds" the first day you see them, and then months later, they are prescribing you weight gain prescriptions. I wonder if it'll be like that with the new nurse practitioner. They both work at the same practice.

Still getting use to the new dosages and meds. I think 3 things changed and 2 more things we added as well, that are non psychiatric.

But back to your situation, I use to get spiritual warfare all the time. Still do but not as much.

Last summer it was bad. So many times it was so bad that I had to call the suicide hotline like 12 times that summer. Ever since Fall hit, I haven't had a suicidal thought since. By the way, the suicide hotline is pointless as a Christian. It's better to just fellowship with believers that it is to call that pointless hotline.

I found a Christian text hotline; so I entered the number and no one reach out for a long time, so I responded with: "Is this a God simulator? It's like really having a one on one with Him." cause no voice is speaking back. I thought it was funny to leave that message for who ever missed it. My sense of humor is kinda dark.

I pray that the demons leave your presence Jacko. I pray that a peaceful comforting presence takes all fear from your mind. It would probably be more helpful if I gave you some scripture, instead of me writing in 2025 southern Californian English.
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I believe the Lord allowed this spiritual attack to happen for a couple reasons now. And I was able to discern something on the spirit spoke to me today. 1) Without the Lord’s protection, we have nothing. We can’t even think, we can’t pray, we can’t we can’t do anything.
2) I’ve been praying for God to show himself more to me, getting impatient with his timing, Like wanting more anointing.
Maybe this is like a “slow your roll” moment. I might’ve been trying to level up too fast, and God took me to the deep end of the pool.
3) I realize how much Jesus had pain to endure, I mean, I couldn’t even endure five minutes of mental hell, and it really almost broke me.


Bottom line, the Lord humbled me in a new way,
 
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jacko said:
I believe the Lord allowed this spiritual attack to happen for a couple reasons now. And I was able to discern something on the spirit spoke to me today. 1) Without the Lord’s protection, we have nothing. We can’t even think, we can’t pray, we can’t we can’t do anything.
2) I’ve been praying for God to show himself more to me, getting impatient with his timing, Like wanting more anointing.
Maybe this is like a “slow your roll” moment. I might’ve been trying to level up too fast, and God took me to the deep end of the pool.
3) I realize how much Jesus had pain to endure, I mean, I couldn’t even endure five minutes of mental hell, and it really almost broke me.


Bottom line, the Lord humbled me in a new way,
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I feel like I'm right there with you. I literally just worked almost two weeks straight with no rest breaks, except for food, drink, bathroom and sleep. Last night I slept for maybe an hour, woke up at 1am and just started working till now. I have bad insomnia.

I was literally doing Christian activities daily but I went into an F*** it mode and went full force. Created a bunch of songs and now I think I need like a week to spend with God and take a break. My brain isn't meant for this.
 
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When I used to read the psalms of David, and in my own life, I used to say I don’t have really any enemies. Now I understand I have many enemies, spiritual enemies. They hate me. They hate God they wanna kill me. They wanna attack me. They want me to die.
 
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jacko said:
When I used to read the psalms of David, and in my own life, I used to say I don’t have really any enemies. Now I understand I have many enemies, spiritual enemies. They hate me. They hate God they wanna kill me. They wanna attack me. They want me to die.
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I am highly aware of that, after going to hell in a mental hospital and two years after that being at a party where God opened my eyes to the demon possessed around me where I called out Jesus' name and my God family rescued me. Two years after that I accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior in spring 2014 and understood that only Jesus/God/Holy Spirit has my back.
 
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ATSTD said:
I feel like I'm right there with you. I literally just worked almost two weeks straight with no rest breaks, except for food, drink, bathroom and sleep. Last night I slept for maybe an hour, woke up at 1am and just started working till now. I have bad insomnia.

I was literally doing Christian activities daily but I went into an F*** it mode and went full force. Created a bunch of songs and now I think I need like a week to spend with God and take a break. My brain isn't meant for this.
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Pace yourself, buddy.
 
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