I have NEUTRALITY toward marriage, its quality is soly determined by the couple and the environment they're living in. Marriage itself could not change either the husband or wife overnight. I don't know what I'm missing because there's nothing to be missed in the first place. I thank God for everything I have, financial security, stable job, inherited apartment, emotional calmness, peaceful family, food and drink in the fridge, air conditioning to cool me down, relatively good health, He even sent a tabby cat to me for companion, most of these I didn't even earn, what more can I ask for? You can dangle your godly marriage in front of me as you want, I'm not gonna disparage you, I feel happy for you, but it's just not for me, God has blessed me with abundance and contentment compared with many of my peers, I'm in no position to be greedy and asking for more. So, I'd rather take "what I'm missing" as a test of faith.