Very good thread Jullianna....makes me reflect on some things.
Im trying to find my call but I have so many interests that I sometimes wonder which one comes from the Lord....or maybe everyone of them comes from him idk. I have noticed that I have a heart for the lost ones (but shouldn't we all have a heart for them?) I really enjoy giving reason of my faith, I feel like I could do anything just to spread the gospel and reach out to people. I've thought about becoming a missionary, or working in some place where I can touch many people someday, but i'm waiting for my time...and my call
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I'm currently in a new season in my life, I just started going to church after a crazy year, the Lord has taught me so many things <3. I kinda feel like this last year was my '' year in Arabia'', just like Paul was lead to Arabia to learn directly from the Lord after his conversion, having no church after I was born-again due to some circumstances, I felt like the Lord taught me a lot from him directly. (btw I'm not by any means saying that I had a revelation like Paul's or that I saw the Lord or something like that, it is a metaphor only
) Of course, I'm still learning and I still have LOTS to learn, but now I feel like I'm not just learning by lecture only , I'm also discovering things with my own hands.
One of the things I have discovered and that deeply disturbs me is how many christians are out there, how many churches, how many people which have been christians ''all their lives'' and yet....besides going to church often, you don't see the difference in them; that light that is supposed to shine through them like you thought ( or I thought) it would it's not there...or it's so weak that it's about to extinguish.
Am I being overly critical? I'm not expecting everyone to be the same nor am I sayin that I want people acting pharisee-like (eww), but sometimes is dissapointing how talking about the Lord is easier with a non-believer! and I'm being serious....Do christians hear so much about God at church that it becomes an annoying or boring topic outside the church? I'm not saying I'm a sparkling fairy reflecting God's light always....but...well I hope someone gets what I'm saying
Anyway....I feel like my calling is something related with the spreading of the gospel however God wants me to do it, he will let me know. If God puts a man in my life, I think it wouldnt work if he doesnt feel a passion for God or if he believes in having a comfortable christian life ( if that even exists), that's why I think that if I get married according to God's will, and if my husband is someone who wants to serve the Lord, I would feel totally pleased in supporting him!( I see now what's so wonderful about marrying a believer, working together means working FOR GOD) if he wants to be a missionary, that would be cool too!
After reading what I wrote I just realized that I didn't actually answer to your question haha....sorry.