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For years I'm having this feeling of not fitting in anywhere, like everyone around me is not of the same species. I feel the need to search something in life that mathers more then just the simple life us humans are leading. For most of my friends nothing mathers more then going to parties. For the older people nothing mathers but to work, pay their car, start a family, going occasionally on holiday and that's it.
I have the constant feeling that there is something more. Something out there. Something spiritual. Something that has the answers that I'm seeking. It leads me towards religion. Don't get me wrong I'm trying to be a good Christian and I do believe in God but going to church on sundays to listen to the priest don't seem to work for me.
This sort of obsession to seek the truth and spiritual wisdom seems to be wrong but at the same time I can't stop with these thoughts. It don't seem right especially since I started experimenting with different types of hallucinating substances to find what I want to find.
I'm sure many people, maybe even everyone don't know what I'm talking about.
I have the constant feeling that there is something more. Something out there. Something spiritual. Something that has the answers that I'm seeking. It leads me towards religion. Don't get me wrong I'm trying to be a good Christian and I do believe in God but going to church on sundays to listen to the priest don't seem to work for me.
This sort of obsession to seek the truth and spiritual wisdom seems to be wrong but at the same time I can't stop with these thoughts. It don't seem right especially since I started experimenting with different types of hallucinating substances to find what I want to find.
I'm sure many people, maybe even everyone don't know what I'm talking about.