Please don't hurt yourself. People have lost their faith in God because Christians have killed themselves. I wouldn't want you to hurt yourself anyway. This life can be hard, especially if you're living with depression or walls built up around you by society and no clear exit to realize your dreams. But with God all things are possible, and I have learned that opportunities come in many forms.
If you ever want to talk then send me an email or we could video chat. Whatever you're comfortable with. Everyone is human and has many sides to them and much depth. I've had the good fortune of knowing a few really annoying ones. But even though they've hurt me in the past it would break my heart to see them continually unhappy, much more so to see them commit suicide.
P.S. You're not going to hell if you commit suicide. But just please don't. God bless you and keep you and watch over you. <3