Lovesong Poetry

Wolf · Jun 26, 2012

(more of my blogging thoughts)

Relationships are evolutionary and adaptable
by: Lowanla (me)

they evolve with change
transcend, grow
as two people are thinking of one goal,
that one special person they've become
they have died to themselves
and become this one person...

If one person or both forgets about
that 'special' person they've created
then they split, and that one 'special' person
they've created slowly dies,

sometimes people forget, or situations happen
to pull them apart, in fury or sorrow...

but just because that 'special' person
goes into a coma doesn't mean it can't be revived,
if the two people are still in sync with their
thoughts toward each other,
and as long as its a positive thing..

its hard to break a bond between two people,
especially if its very close..
its hard to die to oneself
and live for that one goal, sometimes

the question is...

why bother to fight for that 'special' person?
and my answer is..

I guess, because I want you to live,
I want you to be happy,
I want you to trust me,
I want to be able to trust you,
I don't want to destroy or change who I am as a person,
I don't want to destroy or change who you are as a person,
I want some sort of balance,
I don't want to chase delusions,
I don't want to chase dreams,
I want to chase you, I want you to chase me,

I wish I knew how to do this,
I don't want to bother you,
I don't want to move, I feel frozen
but I do love you, I'm in love with you
I want the best for you, i want to make you happy,
I want you to be comfortable around me,

I don't like pushing you away, I only do it, because of the situation,
the delusion, the hallucination, the dream, the fear, your wall
will always be between us, but this is the choice you have made...I go on this way
because I respect you and your decision..

It hurts me though, because it leaves me wondering, it makes me feel bad,
like I'll never be good enough to even to be looked at, or that you are ashamed of me.
Maybe you are protecting me, or there is another reason..

I feel as if I'm being strung along, of course these are only thoughts and concerns, worries,
in my head. This is something that could be changed, or fixed in a positive way..

I love you, I don't want you to feel bad,
if you still want me to try, then I will keep trying,
setbacks happen, thats just life,
things don't have to end on account of these,
I'm not mad at you, I don't hate you,
I want to help you get through, the best I can,
I love you, I wish you would let me know what you
wanted.

If I am wrong, I wish you would just do your best to push me away,
because I can't move, I don't want to push you away either...
I think a lot of you, I love you.

Wolf · Jun 26, 2012

If you Love me
by: Lowanla (me)

If you love me,
Then I shall fear no death,
I shall not fear life, nor the world..

if you love me,
then I shall force myself to walk when crippled,

if you love me,
then I have courage and new strength,

because you love me,
I am able to face the day again

if you love me,
then fear is beneath me

It is because you believe in me,
I am changing into someone improved,

You are someone dear to me,

I love you,
because you are worth a whole lot to me.
I love you,
because without you,
I am incomplete,
with you I am whole.

OFM · Jun 26, 2012

THIS IS GREAT NICE VERY MUCH ALOT HIGHLY EXCELLENT BEE BLESSED ALLWAYS ....AMEN....

Wolf · Jun 26, 2012

OFM said:

Thanks, thats really nice of you to say.

OFM · Jun 26, 2012

Wolf ur most well come amen.

Wolf · Jun 27, 2012

OFM said:

Your welcome to share your thoughts here too.

Wolf · Jun 27, 2012

Vision
by: Lowanla (me)

I find hope in vision,
seeing things before they happen,
lovely things, lovely dreams,
envisioning these things

Like the short walks upon the beach,
the walks down the aisles,
the running up the hill to kiss the moonlight,
the eternal break ups, cycling the eternal make ups,
the soften hearts made for each other,

no, I am not mocking you,
I want you to know, I dream those things too.
but you see, I don't know about you,
but I've got a lot of growing up to do,
so thankyou for waiting for me when you did, even though
you really didn't have to...
I'm grateful.

Its because of how you believe in love,
as if it were the best thing in the world,
I want to be like that too,
cause you deserve the love I see coming from your heart,
Its beautiful to me, wonderful,
a fairy tale, a dream worth coming true.
I love you, I hope one day you believe,
that when I write,
its just that I appreciate,
you being faithful and caring for me,
every single day you knew about me,
I love you.

Wolf · Jun 27, 2012

Love thyself (for my guy)
by: Lowanla (me)

You are constantly enveloped in self defeat,
I remember a couple of years ago
when I was more fearful and I didnt' understand it all,
or how to handle what you were trying to tell me,
I remember watching a movie,
where one of the main characters were alone
and utterly in self defeat, as if they had nothing to give anymore,
they were dying and full of apathy.
then you whispered, "Thats me." or at least thats what I thought I heard.
Then the tormenting shrieking thoughts came and haunted me,
I couldn't sleep, I was tormented, and tormented
until I closed my eyes and inside my mind I screamed
"No! I believe in you!"
Then the Tormenting thoughts and feelings stopped,
they left me alone, because I cut through the negativity,
of what I use to believe about you, and chose to
believe in the positive about you,
They ended there.

I choose to always think positive about you, because I love you.

I feel like I can boss you around,

but you might not listen to me anyway so...

I want to tell you, its okay to love yourself first,
say five things postive over yourself, each day,
it works, it heals too.

do that for me okay?
Do that because I say so, it works for me, it will work for you too.
It helps me alot..

Anyway,

I love you and I care for you,
I want you to feel better about yourself.

Wolf · Jun 27, 2012

My Kind of Love - I'll never be a mature adult
by: Lowanla

The kind of love I feel for you,
is not the adult kind,
there is nothing perverse about it.
Its a childlike kind of love,
I care for you,
I want to see you more positive.

Anyway, I want to tell you,
Don't feel guilty, don't feel bad,
about me, you see I have a
medical condition,
where I get panic attacks
and suffer anxiety problems,
things are amplified 5 times worse,
I have always been this way,
even before I met you,
but I am always finding new ways
to fight this problem of mine.

Its not your fault, okay.

I also have another extreme,
I can turn completely optimistic 5 times extra,
and rebuild my kingdoms within days.
I'll be okay... so don't worry.

I love you no matter what,
because you are just that close to me,
inside my heart, you live inside my circle of trust.
I'll always send positive things your way.

OFM · Jun 27, 2012

nice sharing nice writing,thanx 4 sharing,bee blessed allways,amen.

OFM · Jun 27, 2012

WOLF HI I WILL SHARE SOME POEMS HERE THAX 4 ASKING ME,GBU amen.

Wolf · Jun 28, 2012

Stagnation
by: Lowanla (me)

Time to let go,
I'll let you go,
just let me go,
cause I know
you are in her arms,
please,
don't manipulate me with fear,
just let me go,
I love you still,
but you don't want to be with
someone like me,
I won't hate you if you,
let me go,
Let me find someone
who will hold my hand,
who will be with me,
who will not have another
secret love,
and string me along,
You cannot blame me for wanting
something realistic,
or wanting someone who'd trust me,
Its time to move on...

because you chose
stagnation
over love.

Wolf · Jun 28, 2012

Love is a gift
by: Lowanla (me)

Are you sending me
Some kind of sign tonight
Trying to tell me you long for me
To be alright
I can feel you in this room
Like the sun lights the moon

Memories touching me
As if you're here with me
Are you sending this magic
Of what used to be
Can I send you
Signs then too?
Cause my heart's missing you

Love is a gift, that I give you tonight
Under the stars to wherever you are
Love is a gift, that I promise I will give you
My heart to yours forever more

People everywhere
Are reaching out tonight
Can you feel all the power
Of their candle light
How I longed to reach for you
And in everything I do
I do

Love is a gift, that I give you tonight
Under the stars to wherever you are
Love is a gift, that I promise I will give you
My heart to yours forever more

Every day
In memory of my love
As long as I live
I will share all them
My heart is hoping it
More alive each day
You show me the way
I can almost hear you say
I can almost hear you say

Love is a gift, that I give you tonight
Under the stars to wherever you are
Love is a gift, that I promise I will give you
My heart to yours forever more
My heart to yours forever more
Forever more

Wolf · Jun 28, 2012

Sorry
by: me

I hope its not too late to say I am sorry,
I am sorry for embarrassing you on here.
With my outward accusations, and open fears.
Its mostly speculation after all...

I am also sorry for the other times
I have embarrassed you here.
There was only one barrier between us,
a wall that I couldn't break through. It wasn't mine
it was your own wall that kept us in stagnation. Ironic isn't it?

I knew that the relationship was in stagnation,
and I think you already knew that too. I don't know why
we held on for so long. I think because I wanted to believe
in some sort of happy ending, or happy beginning.
I don't regret any of it, I'm glad I found you, I changed
because of you. I'm growing up because of you.
I'm always trying to look at the positive things about you.

The commitment I've made on account of you,
I will not take back, I don't think I can anyway...
its too late for me, I don't regret it.
I want you to see it as some sort
of second chance at life, even if life is short.
That is my love gift to you. Thats how
important you are to me,
and how much love
I wanted to share with you, you mean
something to me, in fact a lot to me.

I know that you have already said goodbye to me.
I think I was still hanging on somehow for awhile.
I don't regret all the good uplifting poems here,
I wrote to you, they each had a purpose,
to make you see yourself as someone who was
worth a whole lot.

So I will try to do my best to let go too. I dont' think I will
date anyone for awhile, just until my heart heals,
that just might take a little time..don't let me stop you
from living your life though.

Again I am sorry, that I again have embarrassed you.

Wolf · Jun 28, 2012

OH CRAP!!! DX !! I realized I put my name under that song, its not even my song!! DX
So embarrassing, I think my mind was all confuzzled, and as a 'force of habit' put my name under that song by accident! DX well... TT___TT here is the correction... I Apologize...

It is originally by Oto Fumi, I heard this song on that game "The Bouncer"
DX so embarrassing! DDDDX *falls to the floor and dies of embarrassment!* DX

Wolf said:

I will always love you ..

OFM · Jun 28, 2012

NICE THANX 4 SHARING B BLESSED ALLWAYS AMEN....

Siberian_Khatru · Jul 1, 2012

I apologize for my absence.

I'll come back on a high note here with lyrics from a band I recently got into, before my hiatus.

Sentimental (lyrics by Steve Wilson - song performed by Porcupine Tree)

I never wanna be old
And I don't want dependents
It's no fun to be told
That you can't blame your parents anymore

I'm finding it hard to hang from a star
I don't wanna be
Never wanna be old

Sullen and bored the kids stay
And in this way they wish away each day
Stoned in the mall the kids play
And in this way they wish away each day

I don't really know
If I care what is normal
And I'm not really sure
If the pills I've been taking are helping

I'm wasting my life, hurting inside
I don't really know
And I'm not really sure

Sullen and bored the kids stay
And in this way they wish away each day
Stoned in the mall the kids play
And in this way they wish away each day

Beautiful and melodic song, for anyone that's interested:

[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=06ITNnBRveU[/video]

Wolf · Jul 2, 2012

Siberian_Khatru said:

Welcome back *hugs*

It looks as though you escaped Popclicks jar

Wolf · Jul 2, 2012

OFM said:

Still waiting for your thoughts too.

Wolf · Jul 2, 2012

Tell me I am wrong
by: Lowanla (me)

Tell me I am wrong.
When even you said it was okay to move on.
In your eyes am I wrong?
Do you not want me to move on?
I really hate games, playing the fool,
I don't like this situation, nor being lied too.
Its not fancy tricks,delusions, nor magic,
that will convince me anymore.
I suppose I've come to realize
that I need, and deserve more.

I balanced upon your world of hate,
nearly lost my dreams, and life while in wait,
Lowered and degraded who I was as a person for you,
Shot down my beloved Father God, Jesus Christ,
and the Holy Spirit too,
then I shed an inheritance for the fickle moon,
but nothing could prove that I loved you.

I don't know what you want from me..
I was always there when you needed me,
Even when you constantly stole away my dignity,
You never asked you just forced it from me,
I stopped fighting to give you relief.
because I loved you.
Let me ask you this question,
what exactly have you done for me?

I believed in you, I encouraged you, sacrificed for you,
I stayed by you, I loved you, I killed my pride to preserve you,
pushed away everyone I loved for you,
I would have married you, taken care of you,
encouraged you, and grown up with you, had kids with you,
Walked on the beach holding hands toward a better life with you,
I would have worked through all the bad times,
and I would have seen you through,
because

it doesn't matter to me,
who you are,
it doesn't matter to me,
what you've done,
or what you are doing,
I still seen hope,
in the murky future that we'ved dug,
Because I don't see all the crud
covering the diamond that is you,
I seen the person who cried
"I love you"
I heard that first,
and I believed in you.

I came down from my pedestal,
I killed my pride, smashed my crown,
fell like a meteor crashing to the ground,
down to Earth just to meet you.

So tell me I am wrong in moving on,
...I will wait for you again,
I will put everything on hold,
I will dance like a fool and sing you many love songs,
until your spirit is lifted again,
all I need is all of you, for forever,
not just a part of you,
all of you.

I would work with you through the nightmares,
I would catch your tears, together we could fight our fears,
Its not my death I fear, It is knowing you wanted to be with me,
but you couldn't do nor say out of fear. I fear
never being with someone who loved me,
and whom I loved so dearly in return,
I fear living my life without...you.

I love you

- Lowanla

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