Im the same hun...I have terrible breakdowns sometimes...and have those same thoughts. No one can really help its just something i hope i will get over when things change, so im not going to give you false hopes. Just lots of prayer & focus on your goals and taking care of those around you.
we will get there xxx
I have a Bible iphone app and you search keywords and it gives you related verses, then i bookmark the inspiring ones and look back when i feel down.
"Never will I leave you, Never will i forsake you"
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer & petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God"