my guy:
I got a little depressed earlier (well...a lot actually) about something I heard,
Honestly its not my business what you do with your life, its your life. You can do what you want.
What makes this hard is because of the distance and the fact that I get no dignity out of this.
I have an extremely low self esteem if you haven't noticed, and thoughts that are amplified,
so I lose focus. Which I think could possibly be ADHD who knows.. It turns into this torment, and I react.
The thing about love is I know when you have this guilt or sadness, It hurts me, like I have the double amount of a heartbreak.. I'm sorry for making you feel bad...I feel bad for making you feel bad.
I don't hate you, I don't think I could ever hate you, no matter what I hear, its depressing...
cause I'm so confused. I just hope you can promise me if you do find someone else, please hold onto them
entirely, and let go of me. Don't drag me along cause you are trying to protect my feelings. Just do the right thing...if you really love me, I'm a mature adult.
the only reason I got that clinically depressed, is because I don't want to be be someones used doormat.
It would just be nice to be looked at like I am worth something, especially if its coming from somebody who loves me...like you. I know you love me.
The thing about love is, you lose most of your working brain cells, and you love that person so much, anger doesn't last too long, depending on how much brain cells have been lost while being in love...
I'll always love you no matter what...