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I only ask because I recently got engaged, but I will never be pure for my husband seeing as how I was raped as a kid. This means I should marry my attacker once he pays my father enough money, but I'm engaged to another man. This terrifies me.... I know it shouldn't, but it does... Should I call off the wedding and find my attacker to marry him so God might accept at least a small part of me? Or because I'm already living everyday in sin by not being a virgin does that overcloud the fact that I'd be unfaithful to my "should be husband"?
I know God hates me already, I just don't want to do any more to upset him, any ideas?
I know God hates me already, I just don't want to do any more to upset him, any ideas?