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Ok, so i have been friends with this guy at work for a year and a half now, during my darkest times (before i was saved) he remained a good friend and mentor, he is a man of god and a good christian. but i never thought of him more than a friend. i always thanked him for taking the time to talk to a sinner such as myself and listening to the horrible things that i was doing too (not judging me). He is the one who introduced me to the church i attend today. i attended once and didn't go back for another two months because at the time i was not a christian and was interested in more worldly things than my own faith. every week on Sunday he would text me saying "missed you at church" i would always think to myself it is nice to have a friend that cares that much to text me even knowing i am heading down the wrong path. anyways i ended up distancing myself from him because i was ashamed of the way my life was heading and didn't want him to know that i was still drinking, doing drugs and having sex. two months went by and i finally gave up my lifestyle for god. to live through the lord and i got saved on Dec 28th. he was the first person i told and i went to church that Sunday after church he invited me to lunch and i told him everything. and i mean everything. he teared up at my testimony and i cried with tears of joy because i finally felt at peace. i had the holy spirit in me. over a month has gone by since that sunday and i can't explain it but every time i see him now i feel butterflies, my heart beats really fast and i get super shy, he suddenly went from someone i was not attracted to, to one of the most beautiful men i have ever known. i have not told him anything because i feel god has a plan for me but i am not sure of what? i promised god i would not seek. so i keep my feelings inside of me and i am patient. every sunday he has asked me to lunch and we have shared stories,laughed and cried. every sunday he waits for me to get out of sunday school and join him for our 10:30 service. but my problem here is, does he like me? or is he just being a good friend? after church he takes the time to introduce me to all his friends before we head to lunch. i just don't understand what i am feeling or why i started feeling like this after i was saved? i can't help but to wonder if god has a plan or if he is just testing me. i have been patient and will remain patient for as long as god needs me to be. even if my friend (Matt) never asks me out. i will remain a faithful friend to him and a servant to god. i needed to share this with someone because my feelings are that strong. when he is away i find myself missing him. all i want to know from you guys is WHAT COULD I BE FEELING? DO YOU THINK MAYBE HE FEELS THE SAME AND IS BEING PATIENT AS WELL? HAVE YOU GUYS EVER HAD THIS HAPPEN TO YOU TOO?