Sometimes I wonder how someone can claim to love you so much but always seem so far away? I never expected him to fight to keep me, I really just figured it was over because we didn't do things together, we didn't hold hands, he lays on his side and I lay on mine. We don't say "I love you" when we hang up, he doesn't text me just to see how my day is going or just to say "I love you". I don't get flowers, compliments, and if I ask for a back rub he groans and says "when will you rub mine?"
I want flowers. I want someone to brush my hair. I want someone to hold my hand and kiss me passionately. Isn't that what people who love each other do? I asked him if he was in love with me and he couldn't look me in the eye. He couldn't even say he was. Because he isn't. So, if he isn't in love with me then why does he want to hang on to what isn't there? It hurts. It hurts so much to feel so lonely and know that we are avoiding the inevitable? Is there a chance to bounce back from this place????
It's familiar. It's safe. But what is it? A lie? When your husband can't look you in the eye and say he is in love with you? When he wont ask you to dance? When he avoids being alone with you. When he stays up all night and doesn't come to bed until after you are asleep.
It's falling apart. Or it fell apart long ago. .........where is my chrissy? someone help me