Of course you have no other reason to live, you don't have His reason to live yet. Isn't that what you are really asking us for? We can't tell you what that is; He has to do that. But I know that if you kill yourself, it will make Him cry, because then He will have one less person to show his love to.
Lord, I pray that you reveal yourself to Dekote tonight, like you did for my wife Anna, when she prayed. Be your powerful self, Lord, and show her your power in her life, so not only she, but everyone who ever knows her, will know that she is not a mistake.