Speaking my mind

[lil_christian]

Psalm 5:1-3

New American Standard Bible (NASB)


1Give ear to my words, O Lord,
Consider my groaning.
[SUP]2 [/SUP]Heed the sound of my cry for help, my King and my God,
For to You I pray.
[SUP]3 [/SUP]In the morning, O Lord, You will hear my voice;
In the morning I will order my prayer to You and eagerly watch.




These past 2-3 months, I have been struggling with knowing that I can't do anything to help someone very dear and very close to me. I know I can't make decisions for them. And I fear for what lies ahead for them.

These past few days I've felt like I could scream out my prayers on rooftops, unashamedly letting the whole entire world know just how I feel.

Yet, I say to everyone, "Yea, I'm good. I'm alright. Everything's fine." when inside I'm saying, "Nothing's right. Everything's wrong."



But if there's anything I've learned going through this, Jesus hasn't forsaken them, and He hasn't forsaken me. I know that God's in the unknown, and that He's in the seen. And that He knows and holds my hopes, desires, and dreams. His hand is leading me through the dark, in spite of life feeling so cold and even stark.

To the people that have taken the time to read this, thank you.

 

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Psalm 5:1-3

New American Standard Bible (NASB)


1Give ear to my words, O Lord,
Consider my groaning.
[SUP]2 [/SUP]Heed the sound of my cry for help, my King and my God,
For to You I pray.
[SUP]3 [/SUP]In the morning, O Lord, You will hear my voice;
In the morning I will order my prayer to You and eagerly watch.




These past 2-3 months, I have been struggling with knowing that I can't do anything to help someone very dear and very close to me. I know I can't make decisions for them. And I fear for what lies ahead for them.

These past few days I've felt like I could scream out my prayers on rooftops, unashamedly letting the whole entire world know just how I feel.

Yet, I say to everyone, "Yea, I'm good. I'm alright. Everything's fine." when inside I'm saying, "Nothing's right. Everything's wrong."



But if there's anything I've learned going through this, Jesus hasn't forsaken them, and He hasn't forsaken me. I know that God's in the unknown, and that He's in the seen. And that He knows and holds my hopes, desires, and dreams. His hand is leading me through the dark, in spite of life feeling so cold and even stark.

To the people that have taken the time to read this, thank you.

Exactly-you can't make decisions for them. But->you can pray for thm/their problems. Sometimes it takes some time to see some results. Don't give up! Pray! Trust in Him. God knows better-when and how.

 

[maxwel]

Loving someone doesn't mean you can help them, or change them.

Sometimes you have to let go.
And it's okay to learn that while you're still young.
Some people never learn that, and it destroys them.

But keep praying...
always keep praying.

 

[RickyZ]

I know what it's like to put on the smiley face when inside people are killing you. Been there done that all my life, and it sucks. Eats you up inside. I finally had to let go of those who I longed to help but refused me. I had to let go of people who created toxic environments. I had to let go of those who had no appreciation or respect. I had to let go of family.

But having done that, the smiley face is for real now.

 

[Powemm]

Open your hands and give all of it up to God .. Go to Him In prayer and supplication , let your request be made known..

 

[lil_christian]

Exactly-you can't make decisions for them. But->you can pray for thm/their problems. Sometimes it takes some time to see some results. Don't give up! Pray! Trust in Him. God knows better-when and how.

Yeah, it hurts BIG time. But yes, I definitely am praying. As much as it hurts, I still trust God. I was just hurting to bad that this is what it resulted in...me writing this thread. But I think in a way writing this thread has helped. Though my problems is still existent and very obvious, I know Who holds the universe, AND my problems.

 

[lil_christian]

I know what it's like to put on the smiley face when inside people are killing you. Been there done that all my life, and it sucks. Eats you up inside. I finally had to let go of those who I longed to help but refused me. I had to let go of people who created toxic environments. I had to let go of those who had no appreciation or respect. I had to let go of family.

But having done that, the smiley face is for real now.

Letting go has been one of the biggest issues I have had in life. Especially recently, since I lost my grandpa just in November. I know who is important to me and how much I love my family, but sometimes, they don't always make good decisions. but God will work with me on it. I guess this might be one way He is. Hopefully I'll be able to look back and see what He was trying to teach me during this time.

 

[wisebeardman]

I Personally try not to let things I can't change bother me.

If someone I know makes stupid decisions. I may tell them its a bad idea, But they walk their own path.

 

[lil_christian]

[video=youtube;zrQHNQ0hwQE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrQHNQ0hwQE[/video]

I just listened to this song...it shocked me. It was like this song was written for me, and this situation.

 

[PopClick]

Love that song, Lil. Praying for you, and the situation, as well. Philippians 4:6-7...

 

[leelee]

Lil you are fantastic! You inspire me with your whole attitude, genrally I don't bring up ages for experience but you are young to have your hwad screwed on so well!

 

[lil_christian]

Lil you are fantastic! You inspire me with your whole attitude, genrally I don't bring up ages for experience but you are young to have your hwad screwed on so well!

aw, thank you Leelee you're super awesome too.

 

[zaoman32]

Wow. I always liked you before just from your attitude and personality, but I have a whole new level of respect for you now. I see you handling this situation and it is just amazing to me that at that young of an age you can have the perspective you do on it, and keep God in sight like you are doing. Amazing.

 

[leelee]

as they say in glasgow, thanks hen!

 

[lil_christian]

Wow. I always liked you before just from your attitude and personality, but I have a whole new level of respect for you now. I see you handling this situation and it is just amazing to me that at that young of an age you can have the perspective you do on it, and keep God in sight like you are doing. Amazing.

Thank you so much, Zao. I do admit I don't always have this attitude and can be quite grumpy about it, but then God kinda is like "*ahem* what'm I, chopped liver?" (not exactly like that of course, God's alot nicer and less sarcastic ) and then I gotta make sure I'm refocused. Or else I'd sink in the storms of life.

 

[iTOREtheSKY]

Yes,like Zao said.Agree 100%! So nice to see younger people such as yourself LiL' who really seem to be seeking God wholeheartedly. A vast change from when I grew up...and even in my 20's,the youth at my old church never we as sold out to God as you are...well maybe 2 out of 20 actually seemed interested in Jesus,but most were forced to attend & could care less. Keep on Rockin' for the King! You inspire us of all age groups by your zeal & love for God!

 

[lil_christian]

Seriously, you guys are awesome. I'm surprised to see all the support you all have given me. Thank you so much and God bless you guys.

 

[AzureAfire]

Hello, little brother in Christ! God bless your sincerity of heart and mind! Truly His Spirit moves within you.

Thank you for sharing what you are going through right now. I can relate very much. I'm the only Christian in our family, and it is quite a struggle to reach out to them. We really need to be strong, and to set an example by living Godly lives. We face so many testings, mostly trying to weigh us down, and make our intimacy with our Lord grow colder, as the world finds its way into us, burdening us with its vain matters. But we are blessed because God sees us through it all. He is faithful to lift us up when we are down, and strengthen us when we are weakened. Constantly watching over us day to day, ever open to hear our prayers and bear all our concerns.

That song you shared is very beautiful! I remember the night i broke down, and finally cried to the God that i doubted existed that i needed Him to take over...that i'm helpless and can do no more. And He came and gave me true life and meaning eversince! Then 2nd part echoes the struggle i went through, day to day, slowly getting colder...slowly and surely moving away. But time and again, i was brought to my knees to pray. For where can we go from His spirit? How can we flee from His presence? For for Him, darkness is as bright as the day. Wherever we are, He sees us. Watches over us. Is with us. And He loves us continually. Patiently. Everlastingly

Continue to fight the good fight of faith, dear brother! You are an inspiration to us all. And if you need a friend, we are all here for you! God bless you in everything, everyday and always!

 

[Jullianna]

Lil, you know how much you and your family mean to me. I have a pretty good idea what this is about. Know that God loves this person even more than you do. Trust Him.

Am here for you all and praying

 

[lil_christian]

Lil, you know how much you and your family mean to me. I have a pretty good idea what this is about. Know that God loves this person even more than you do. Trust Him.

Am here for you all and praying

I have a pretty good idea you're right. Thank you Jullianna. <3