Recent content by Cory85

I don't know that nor feel it. I do believe in a creator but I do not think he loves anything or he would make the nightmare stop or never allowed it to start I am not sure what you're asking. All my joints hurt and my skeleton. is twisted

I don't know how anyone feels anything but distraught but my main problems are constant chronic pain, having no point or purpose except to suffer until it kills me, and I have no money or any goals to chase to keep me distracted from the utter disappointment of existing

I have nothing left to lose except my broken sick sad body that I'm ready to leave anyway

Should I kill myself and just hope for the best? Or? Why am I alive? Why was I born stupid and evil and broken and helpless and unloved and why won't any of the basic Christian platitudes of God fixing this awful murderous hell someday actually comfort me, here, in hell, waiting for something...

Yes, enough to voluntarily lay down my life for good.

I promise you that this is hell, and reincarnation is just how they keep it fresh. I am not scared of judgmental sky daddy, cuz I know how much I love my own children, and how much more god loves me. My problem is about what to do right now, for God, but the myth of individual salvation is...

I must just not be a sheep... I got baptized voluntarily, though. I asked, I knocked. I keep asking and knocking. Not really any alternatives

Invisible, unfeelable, unhearable, untrustable, NOT HERE FOR ME, if not dead and gone home... anyway, Holy Spirit says sell everything, renounce all title and claim, even to my name, and go wander off into the wilderness. That's what I'll do if nothing else makes sense soon. It just looks like...

If He wants to love me after this hell, that's fine, whatever, but if his sacrifice really released us, why do we ALL still suffer and die? I could never love anyone while the threat or fear of punishment existed though. If there is one soul in a real hell, there I'll be too. Anyway, I need...

If He wants to love me after this hell, that's fine, whatever. I need something that is real and present NOW, HERE, IN MY REAL LIFE THAT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH OR WHAT JESUS WANTS ME TO DO WITH IT EITHER. I don't know what my sin was except to be born of sad scared mammals in a sad scary...

I believe he really existed and actually did appear to people after he died. I do not believe he cares at all whether I go to heaven or to hell though or about anything in between or is present here. As far as I can tell I'm just supposed to magically be something good, but not good enough, and...

I don't know what to believe anymore. I have to believe that the "kingdom is at hand" and I just haven't found it within yet, or I am pretty sure I would just spontaneously turn back to dust, but I know nothing but words about Jesus. He doesn't feel real or present or caring. I definitely...

Hi, I believe in Jesus but I don't feel loved by or any love for God or my neighbors. We're all screwed and it's God's fault for making awful creatures like humans in the first place as far as I can tell. I didn't ask for an innocent miracle worker to get murdered for my sins, I want to be...