Blahing

Sometimes I just get completely disgusted by the my own nature
My own running from God
My idolatries
My lusts/passions/desires that are contradictory to God's plan for me.
My haughtiness
My procrastinating nature
My success that isn't based upon announcing God as the designer of that success
The moments that I decide to let the opportunities to spread the gospel to slide by.
The fear of man
Wanting to be comfortable.
The idea of being happy.
My own depression
My anxieties
Not dealing with the things that need to be dealt with
My faulty memory.
Seeing people with more fruit than me and feeling jealous?
Putting things into my body that are bad for me.
Not telling people the truth at all times.
& Lastly, asking God to kill my flesh and rejecting the process.

Terrible, lol.

Well, at least you see what God is showing you. That is awareness, that is honesty that few will admit.

You are on the right track. Watch your thoughts and don't judge yourself for what you see. Very few are as aware as you at your age. Keep walking, you will overcome.

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Well, at least you see what God is showing you. That is awareness, that is honesty that few will admit.

You are on the right track. Watch your thoughts and don't judge yourself for what you see. Very few are as aware as you at your age. Keep walking, you will overcome.

Be sure you are not judging yourself. You are not rejecting the process, you could be listening to a demon that wants to kill the process.
Just remain aware that we have two voices talking, one God and the other the demon. God never gives more than we can bear so don't try to tackle everything you see. Sit down and close your eyes and meditate for about ten minuet several times a day and it will calm you down. Don't try to meditate on anything, just let your thoughts flow and don't get caught up in them. Your mind will become still, let thoughts flow and don't fall into them. Let them go, by watching you will continue to understand.
Scripture tells us to meditate. The words will come to you that you need to see, without getting caught up in the intellect. It will go straight to your soul and you will receive insight and revelations.

I hope you understand.

I suspect there are more than a few believers who can identify with some or more of these you have listed.

Me?

"wanting to feel comfortable" At my age, this is something I desire, but know that I must put God's will first, and sometimes God's will can cause us to feel uncomfortable until we submit to His will.

"my faulty memory" I struggle daily, no hourly, no minute by minute with this. Most often I just get angry with myself rather than praying about it.

"The moments that I decide to let the opportunities to spread the gospel to slide by." Sadly, me as well, and I'm so sorry for that dear Lord. You have never let me down, yet I struggle at times to "lift You up."

Thank you for this thread.......and God bless

one of the JOYS of being a part of the family of God......friends are JUST a prayer away!

God bless