Try find things look 4ward to.
Little things even like "a cupa tea with toast" or a bubble bath or a cuddle...
if you have noone cuddle you imagine a future (close/near future) where you shall be embraced and loved and feel joy and good.
Feel yourself.
Have you had trauma?
Post trauma stress you difficulty deal with?
Do not jump to medications but if you decide upon it be very gentle and careful of what you put inside.
Read side effects and maybe tiny doses or use natural herbs, vitamin , exercise etc
When depressed and maybe drained exercise difficult to perform but you could try seek support and pepp talk and small steps such as "a little walk each day".
and build from there.
Seek help.
Try to find some one you can trust and hope they dont betray you, drug you, rape you , solicite you while you drugged , tie you up and steal etc
You may be in a whole community of people who bring you down.
Maybe they have a lot to gain from it.
Some people make lot money of people misery and by downing them in various ways.
If so would it help you move ?
Or pray for a new people enter your life , a better people who you can "connect" with communicate with have understanding with.
A people understand you or at least some of them may and might even care for you. lol
(stranger things have happened and beleive miracles)
Save up for massage but be careful who you see so dont do damage instead of good.
Comfort your self.
Drink hot chocolate or tea and wrap blanket around and pray someone to come to you and comfort you.
Talk to your self.
It does help. (remember trauma i had and every second was aaaaaaagony I kept talking to self take it minute by minute hour by hour day by day..)
Suicide not good you can avoid and you can heal trauma.
It can take years but imagine wonderful things you can experience b4 you die.
You might meet new people and have new experiences and move home and find peace and healing.
I know a woman who was in cage and restraint for yrs like jail and raped and she was trauma they drugged her also and said she whore and she was not.
Men raped in anus and also tortured people but they survived and also brainwashed people but they could heal brain or live happy with out brain.... lol
Take care of yourself.
Keep the faith .
seek professional.
Seek people who care, understand, encourage, support, dont judge and down you or "get over it"...
If you do not find people like this.
Then do not give up.
They are a minority theremany pretend be this but are not so keep faith and hold on.
Song that goes "hold on help is on the way"
Hold on.
Better days can come and better nights aswell.
Please do not give up that you can feel better soon, heal and not kill yourself.
Although one may kill self "oh noooooo i doooont want be bron again in thaaaaat family..... " lol
theeey were horrid absolutelyyyyyyy.......
I want a better family not rape and steal so i had a accident and born again to be self where noone steal and rape etc
or organise it without such drama.