DEPRESSION: A Ladybug's True Story of Dark vs. Light

Thank you Blue

Am proud of u ladybug, ur testimony really inspire me, God bless u.

Hello Blue Ladybug - I so appreciate your post and description of what you've been through. I expected you to be older and was surprised at only 43. I've suffered from serious anxiety/depression my entire life. Most of my life [I'm 71] there was no discussion or even recognition of this condition - not until 15 years ago when it came to the fore and medication was available. It was difficult enough dealing with my condition, but with no help and so much denial of any problem existing, I have no idea how I made it this far. In my later years, I did get therapy and medication, but saw no real improvement until 4 years ago when I turned my life over to God. Since then, my life has improved, but I struggle with the aftereffects of so many years of anxiety and depression. Finances suffered, relationships suffered, and on and on - and rebuilding at my age is not easy. However, I'm finding many young people who come to me and I can respond to them with hope and understanding - so maybe this is why I am where I am and have been where I've been. Please keep open to others as you are doing because you may not even be aware how much you can impact someone who is struggling with this and trying to hold on to life. God Bless you.

Blue Ladybug

What an awesome testimony! I am so sorry you have had to battle depression for most of your life and am thankful that God has lifted you up and is walking with you in continued battle daily. I too went through a sever bout of depression in which I did attempt suicide and was Baker Acted into a mental healthcare facility when I was 40. I did want to kill myself and tried to do it God put a stop to that in the form of a friend making a phone call and bringing an army of police... I am so thankful that God kept me around. I too understand the darkness of depression.

On a fun and side note....please I beg you get rid of the hairball hocking cat as your avatar and bring back a Blue Ladybug!! lol[/QUOTE


​lol.. he's not hawking up a hairball.. he's making a funny face like "na na nananana "

secularhermit, while my literal heart may not be blue, it has felt blue rather often during my lifetime. I try to be brave, but sometimes I dont always do such a good job of it. Thank you for your nice words.

Toska, you are welcome!! Next, I plan to write about my life-long struggle with suicidal thoughts/attempts, and loss of friends and family to suicide. With each thread I write, it is my fervent hope that whoever reads my words will gain hope and courage and inspiration. After all, I made it through each battle for a reason: to share my experience with others. I always try to be caring and compassionate, yes I do speak my mind, but I TRY to be somewhat polite about it!! LOL!! Even when I write about such serious topics, I always try to throw a bit of humor in with it. I'm fortunate enough to be able to see the positive side as well as the negative. I can usually see the humorous side of it as well. Thank you for saying I am courageous, and a blessing. I always try to be both. God bless you, Toska.

God must certainly be at the center of your life. Your story is incredible and is a beacon of hope for others in their own trials and tribulations. You are an inspiration from the Lord. There are very few who would have the courage to open the hard things of their heart so that others my benefit. I am already blessed for having known you through your writing. God Bless You too blue_ladybug.

I hope U don{ t need a thread to sign in to confirm INSPIRATIONs.