It is your feelings that you needn't worry about. Just try to live and act in such a way that would be in line with God's purposes for your life. Everyday I just don't act on every wrong feeling I have - and there are many. That is what the bible calls denying yourself (taking up your cross and Jesus said) and living your life for the Lord. You can say "No". It is just a choice and doesn't require your feelings to line up with that choice. Find a community of believers who will help you find a spiritual purpose for your life.. As a Christian, mine is to help others, and to bring to those who are hurting, comfort. It is also to teach others to surrender their lives to Christ and ask Him to fill them with the Holy Spirit to give them the power to make the right choices. Wrong feelings will always be there - but they don't have to have the power to affect the choices you make. God blesses and honors your choices - not judges you for your feelings. My prayer for you is that you find a group of Christians who will show you respect and support you in your seeking more knowledge of Christ and what He can be for you.