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I'm not happy with myself. Not in the slightest. .
School started back this week and I can already see myself falling back into some nasty habits.
It's so easy to follow God when I'm here alone and he's all I have to focus on.
But as soon as I get around my peers, you would never guess I'm a Christian. Well, that's a little bit of an exaggeration. I'm not THAT bad but it's enough for me to question myself & my spiritual strength since I'm so quick to get angry, or curse (I know, I know), or talk back, or react to a situation where I feel disrespected in.
You know that time of night, right before youu drift off into your peaceful rest, your mind replays all the events of the day. The funny moments, the embarrassing ones thatt make you giggle, how many times you day dreamed, and about that essay that's due tomorrow. .? Well I dread that time of day the most, because I know I have upset the Father* repeatedly. . .
I dunno. I just feel really guilty all the time. Someone told me walking with Christ doesn't mean you go the rest of your Life without ever sinning again, but that when you do sin you repent & ask for strength to overcome your demons with Gods help. I wish this wasn't so hard for me. .
No one has to answer or leave feedback or anything. I just needed to get these thoughts of mine out. .I don't have many people I can talk to so. .
Thanks for viewing. . .
School started back this week and I can already see myself falling back into some nasty habits.
It's so easy to follow God when I'm here alone and he's all I have to focus on.
But as soon as I get around my peers, you would never guess I'm a Christian. Well, that's a little bit of an exaggeration. I'm not THAT bad but it's enough for me to question myself & my spiritual strength since I'm so quick to get angry, or curse (I know, I know), or talk back, or react to a situation where I feel disrespected in.
You know that time of night, right before youu drift off into your peaceful rest, your mind replays all the events of the day. The funny moments, the embarrassing ones thatt make you giggle, how many times you day dreamed, and about that essay that's due tomorrow. .? Well I dread that time of day the most, because I know I have upset the Father* repeatedly. . .
I dunno. I just feel really guilty all the time. Someone told me walking with Christ doesn't mean you go the rest of your Life without ever sinning again, but that when you do sin you repent & ask for strength to overcome your demons with Gods help. I wish this wasn't so hard for me. .
No one has to answer or leave feedback or anything. I just needed to get these thoughts of mine out. .I don't have many people I can talk to so. .
Thanks for viewing. . .