how are you?

my show was a rerun... it was lame! lol
and i didnt sleep that well last night... I havent been sleeping good lately. I always toss and turn for hours! gah! its annoying!
today has been going ok. I mean its pretty normal. but its kinda a boring normal so im all blah lol. if you know what i mean.

Xspinningisfun.... First, Thank you..my dad passed away in 2000, and it still has the power to hurt..but I also know he is with Jesus and in a much happier place than we can yet imagine, soooo again, thank you. I have read your other thread a bit too...."I'm Frustrated" and I agree with Merryheart that maybe you need to be seen to be sure the insomnia is treated if it needs to be and correctly fgured out so as not to have it lead into anything bigger. I will be praying....God Bless you!!

Goth4God.........I'm so sorry your show was a rerun!! and yes, "normal" CAN be boring!!! hahah but I hope you chose to get into something you find fun and come out of the boring norm!!! As for the insomnia...read what I posted to Xspinningisfun....and maybe check out her thread "I'm frustrated...for other's suggestions etc...I always sleep like a rock!! hahahaa so Im not sure what else to tell you two on it!! My hubby has a tiredness that plaques him...he can sleep at the drop of a hat!! and so we need answers of a different kind.....if you could keep us (him) in your prayers??.

God Bless......

Ohhhhhhh and I have had a very nice day so far today, and Papabean just got home...so it just got better!!!

How are you??

today has been pretty good and i am in a good mood!
prolly cuz im looking forward to the weekend!
concerts and my sisters bday party ^_^

I AM SO HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i better go out and eat

yeah. when my nana passed away in october, i was devastated and i still am. i don't think the hurt or pain will ever leave. there are days when you feel like they're there with you, but then theres days when you feel like they aren't. it comes and goes and pretty much sucks! ha.

my day was pretty dang dandy!
and i know tomorrow will be too! ^_^

How am I?

To be completely honest with you, right now I am very sad. I guess I am having a small pity party for myself, but no worries, I will get over it quickly.

i feel very lost about life! idk what im supposed to do! >_<
and i'm hoping to get a job at a summer camp i worked at last summer but idk if it will happen =[
id really like the job, and most of my friends are gonna work up there again.
but i guess if i dont get in its not in Gods will.

Goth4god....I hope yur weekend is as wonderful as it sounds!!! and all that you expect it to be!! Wish your sis a Happy Birthday from me ok??

Carpetmanswife......this is exactly what I love about you!!! You must be in pain with that finger and yet you are still "just dandy" !! hahhaa if everyone had that outlook.....the world would be a happier place all around!!!

Abing.......do go get some food sweetie!!! hahaa

Xspinningisfun..........I am so sorry for your loss.....of your "nana (aunt??) and of......someone else dear to you, a friend?? (I've read other posts from other forums) It does get easier with time, but there is always a bit of a ....an emptiness....... The Lord only gives us what we can handle though, so hold dear your memories and Thank the Lord you had the time you did...that's what gets me through my tough spots.

Compassion............I pray alot, and will be sure to pray that you are happier by the next time I see a post from you!! Pity parties for oneself can only last so long,,,then you gotta get up and go do something you love..and you'll feel better!!!

Take care and God Bless.......
Ohoh.... and I am doing ok right now......gotta go get some cleaning and stuff done though......ughi......

How are YOU???

I am amazing cuz God loves me and has blessed me SO much! ^_^

I always say "fine" too because the reality is often to complex to explain in a quick chipper manner, and 99% the person asking probably doesn't even want to know!

How am I doing? Physically, I am heathy minus my being overweight. Emotionally, I am stable though I must admit melencholy brought about by the isolation from my peers on campus due to me being a 23 year old sophmore (kids, go to college as soon as possible!)
I'm also stressed from myriads of essays that I am writing, one particularly demanding professor who happens also to be the Abbot of the Monastery intimidates me a little, and I am missing a handful of people who are nearly 1000 miles away (not my parents, either). But, I am comforted by the encouragement I recieve from the monks on campus, from Christ, and I am glad that I found my coffee filters...hahaha.

I'm good!
I ate too many cookies and need to work on my life a bit, but I'm good! ^_^

My Nana was my grandma. She struggled with cancer for 10 months. Soooo. And yeah, my friend died. This week would be his one year anniversary. And my Aunt died on my birthday, which is going to be Saturday. So I'm pretty much going to sad...but I'll try to make most of it! God's still mending the broken heart, but I have such a peace to know that my Nana is up there in heaven. My Aunt wasn't a Christian :/...I wish I ministered to her. I used to be ashamed of God, but no longer. I love spreading His love to others <3

I'm doing ok for the most part.
I'm kinda mad at my dad cuz he has no clue how to handle money and we got a 48 hour notice from PG&E.
but I'm ok!

I'm nervous and scared. I'm meeting my cousin who I havent seen in 17 years tonight and he's staying for 2 weeks. I'm scared because I dont want him to be bored and I dont want to be all shy and awkward with him. Oh I hope we get along, I hope he likes me. Oh lord I'm freaking out!!!!!

^ I'm sure you will do fine! ^_^

I'm doing ok. having a bday party tomorrow so that will be fun!

but it really sucks cuz my family yells a lot and I hate it and get sad =[

XSpinningisfun....My heart goes out to you....(and I am sorry I messed up on who your "nana" was....I know "nana" generally means "grandma" in most cases... but since I am not a grandma ...and my nick is NANAbean....welll...and you did say your aunt had gone to heaven as well......) you have certainly had alot of deaths in your family in a short time frame?? yes? I just wish for you to concentrate on the goodness of knowing them each for the time you had and remember with fondness the good times. They say the first year is the hardest, and in alot of ways it IS, but don't look for everything to be smooth sailing after that.....it is rocky for quite a while with many different feelings and adjustments...just when you may think you are "over it" you learn its more about gettting "THROUGH IT" instead!! I've read/heard that there are ..what 7?? stages of grief....but I will NOT be one to tell you "I know exactly how you feel" since I have experienced loss in my life too......no no no!! Each of us are different...and each persons relationship with another is different as well. Just know that while there may be "stages" of grief (and there are) everyone experiences them individually, and at different times. What I mean is one stage can be felt by you this month while your brother is feeling a different one, and next month or week, you move into a different stage while he may still be in the one he has been in ..or he may move into the one you just were in or even a different one altogether.......I guess what I getting at is.....let it come naturaly, rely on God to be your strength, and keep moving forward as your Nana, aunt and friend all would want you to. Please know that my prayers are with you....especially today.......and I truly do wish you a Happy Birthday!!! Many prayers........