i need some help and advice.

ok i been celibate for a while and to keep myself from giving in to the flesh, i fell into a habit of porn... and i reallllllly hate it and feel dirty watching it. every time i watch it, i feel dirty and hate myself for doing it and tell myself i know God wont want me like this...

i need some help and advice how to overcome this. i been praying for a while, but it hasnt been working. i know it starts with me, but i feel really weak.

celibacy is not healthy.

neither is pre-marital sex. but celibacy is not healthy mentally when there was a time when all you knew was sex. how do you have a relationship with a female and its not based around sex, when thats how you use to function at 1 point. even if sex wasnt involved, sex was always the intention. i really dont know how to have a relationship without sex. i wouldnt know where to begin. and because of this, i have been avoiding females all together because i know what comes next. just like recently, a old friend from high school invited me over. and since ive been secluding myself, i figured i would go out and enjoy myself. and i told myself nothing was going to happen. sure enough, i messed up.

its been an on-going battle / struggle. mentally, it has really taken its toll. it makes me awkward around females because i dont want to say anything. like i said, i avoid them. and that is not healthy. i really have to build myself back up, but i dont know where to start or even how to go about it. i feel lost and confused and my lifestyle since being baptized, has really changed me. i dont know how to just 'be' anymore... everything is like walking on egg shells. i really lost myself and i need to get a hold of myself. pull myself back together.

sorry for ranting, just speaking my mind and getting some things off my chest, and hoping to get some positive feedback!

people come in.. people read... and people go..


when you are up, they are fast to put you down. when you are down, they pay you no mind.


Jesus says, trust no man. man will forsake you. He never will. you can always trust Him to be there. He will never leave you.

Imperfect,don't beat yourself up about this.We all have weak areas we struggle with.You will get through it,just keep going try to find another man you can talk to about it.I am sorry I am not more help.

God is very big and very powerful, just let go and let God.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
[SUP]6 [/SUP]In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct[SUP][a][/SUP] your paths.
Proverbs 3

Things may get bad for us but that's how he refines us and makes us more like Him.

God is our refuge and strength,
A very present help in trouble.
[SUP]2 [/SUP]Therefore we will not fear,
Even though the earth be removed,
And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
[SUP]3 [/SUP]Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling. Selah

[SUP]4 [/SUP]There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
[SUP]5 [/SUP]God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved;
God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
[SUP]6 [/SUP]The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved;
He uttered His voice, the earth melted.

[SUP]7 [/SUP]The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah

[SUP]8 [/SUP]Come, behold the works of the Lord,
Who has made desolations in the earth.
[SUP]9 [/SUP]He makes wars cease to the end of the earth;
He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
He burns the chariot in the fire.

[SUP]10 [/SUP]Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!

[SUP]11 [/SUP]The Lord of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah
Psalm 46

This might help you: http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com
What I know about addiction is that it takes both being set free by God and training to stay away from the addiction. I have been in a marriage and now I am alone. I know celibacy can be hard, but porn (or any other replacement) does not help to fill in the gap that I or you have because of missing a spouse. Celibacy is healthy. But our mind is often polluted by thoughts, pictures and situations that makes our mind and body react. I found out the more I bring my life and thoughts under the cross of Christ the more FREE I become.

Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalted itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;2 Kor 10:5

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Phil 4:6-8

I cant say enough about Setting Captives Free. I did the way of purity course there about 5 months ago, just awesome how God has used them in my life and others.

Check it out man.

http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com

If you have any questions about the course you can PM me.

I enjoyed everyone's encouragement and scriptures to you. You have a new life now, so you have to learn new habits or new 'things to do', such as praying and taking personal time to study your Bible. A new mindset, different from how you use to think, new friends, who believe in the ways of the Lord. You need to find a good church home that teaches holiness, as the Bible instructs (if you haven't already). If you have found a church home, do not underestimate or blow off the importance of getting involved in your church. Attending the Bible study classes, join the usher board, join the choir, be a part of something or some things that interest you and get involved. Learn how to properly fast, which help us to think more spiritual. All of these things TAKE TIME. They don't happen overnight...Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. Matt 11:29. But once you become a Christian, you can't be idle and you can't keep company with the same type of non-believers you did before. It's not that you are better then them now, but if you are not strong enough as a Christian to resist sin, then they will pull you back into the world you are trying to be delivered from. Most importantly, don't give up trying and ask the Lord to fill you with his Holy Spirit....even if you give in to your flesh and watch porn...you keep going back to the Lord, don't allow the devil to make you feel like you cannot be delivered from porn, because you can!