Lovesong Poetry

How I see it

I know you are not happy
with this love mediocrity,
I don't think you are happy
with distance either
who can be happy that way,
who can be happy with so little?
Especially when they know
they could be with who they
wanted, there are so many daily opportunities.
What about the more days
we spend without each other?

I know you think about this too,
I think about it a lot.

I know you have the loveliest dreams,
of what could be.
I believe you dream of the
lovely things, with you and I, I do too.

I think that's why I'm out in the open
because then you know i am not afraid
of who sees me.
Let the world do what they will or say to me,
all I know is, the odds are now even.

It will be just me and you
alone together and separate
but still one person
No one else has to be involved,
unless we want them to be.
I've been thinking about that a lot too.
Just our own little world alone.

There is no way I could let
anything happen to you,
but even with all the fears,
I still don't think I can do without you,
I guess there's way too much hope in me
to see something wonderful out of this
because I can
even if we were the poorest people,
I believe I would still be happy
just because you would there
right next to me.
​

we have a choice to face whatever consequences we want,
with whomever we want.
There is a freedom in that,
you have a choice,
I have a choice,
this is my life and I want it to be
a life where I make the right decision,
you are the right decision
not because of your spirituality,
not because of who you are,
not because of what you can do,

but because you love me.

That way we are truly free, we are happy,
We don't have to make a statement for anybody,
we don't have to prove anything to anybody,
You won't ever have to strive to be somebody or perfect for me,
You could let yourself go if you wanted to,
I know to you that probably sounds silly,
but I've never been more serious in my life,
I'm so happy right now,
there is too much hope in me, to walk away from this,
I can still see a future there, I can see something,
and I also know because you haven't let me go,
we are suppose to be together, you make me happy.

because you love me, and want to be with me,
I love you back, and I want to be with you,

I see you as a treasure and worth a whole lot to me,
I desire your company very much so, I desire life with you.
I want everything about you, I want to talk about everything,
so one day when we are together,
I won't have to write you this way, cause we will be together.
I am waiting for that day. I know there will be a day.

We mean something to each other and that's all that matters.

I am not afraid to say these things,

that's how free I am
To love you.

I love you.

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Where Have You Been?
By: Lowanla (me)

Are you going to save the day or what?
cause I feel like I'm all alone
fighting against the storm
both night and day
losin sleep cause of things
I can't quite explain
and those I love are going through
severe pain and agony
O Lord when are you gonna
rescue us from this prison?

where are you when I need you
where have you been
where are you when I need you
where have you been

O Lord
Where are you
when will you pull through
cause I'm hearing you sayin things
like you want me to be faithful
well faithfuls what I've been
but its so hard when I'm looking up
and its forward that I'm walkin'
it feels like you forgot me
when I fall face first trippin'
I hit the pavement
and the world laughs at my face..

I'm stuck in the wilderness
sometimes I can't hear your voice
I can't feel your presence
I never saw your face
but you give me signs you are there
and your tellin me be faithful..
I know you are real and close to me
but it feels like you are far away
and you forgot us

O Lord
Where are you when I need you
where have you been?
O Lord
Where are you when I need you
cause i've been callin cryin
O Lord
help my brother please God heal him
O Lord
Help the one I love too cause he needs your
love and he needs you to rescue him.
O Lord
Where are you
cause I can't hear your voice
O Lord defend me now
cause you are my God right now
Where are you
where are you
when I need you
I need you
I need you
​

Dear Lord,
thank you for giving me the strength
And the conviction to complete the task you entrusted to me.
Thank you for guiding me straight and true,
Through the many obstacles in my path.
And for keeping me resolute when all around seemed lost.
Thank you for your protection and for your many signs along the way.
Thank you for any good that I may have done.
I'm so sorry about the bad.
Thank you for the friend I made.
Please watch over her as you watched over me.
Thank you for finally allowing me to rest.
I'm so very tired.
But I go now to my rest
In peace
Knowing that I have done right
with my time on this earth.
I fought the good fight.
I finished the race.
I kept the faith.
- Eli's Prayer
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For My Hugs (you're my can of happiness )
by: Lowanla (me)

I have to believe for the best
even if I am not standing in your shoes
and I don't know what you go through
maybe you are right...I do not know you,
because I am not you,
I am me
but then again..
what draws you to me? *smiles*
I'm glad I don't have the same thoughts as you
I love you
but that doesn't mean I have to think like you
I say what I do because I believe in you
I will not give up on you, I refuse.
if I thought the way you do
so negatively at times
I wouldn't love you
the way I do
I do not agree with the negativity
and you can't make me.
because you are not me.

I am here for you
even if you don't believe in yourself
Don't get me wrong...
I know I cannot change you,
I accept you
but I don't have to agree with you,
to love you.

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Shallow

I don't remember
Did something in my past create a hole?
Don't use your gender
To drive a stake right through my soul

I live to function
On my own is all I know
No friends to mention
No distraction, nowhere to go

Shallow, shallow
Give it to me, give it to me
Scissors cutting out your anger
Shallow, shallow
No good to me, not if you bleed
Bite your tongue, ignore the splinter

This city drains me
Well maybe it's the smell of gasoline
The millions pain me
It's easier to talk to my PC

I live to function
On my own is all I know
No friends to mention
No distraction, nowhere to go

Shallow, shallow
Give it to me, give it to me
Scissors cutting out your anger
Shallow, shallow
No good to me, not if you bleed
Bite your tongue, ignore the splinter​

Why should a light be afraid?
by: Lowanla (me)

did you know you were a thought imagined
before you were even born
did you know the one who thought you up
put every skill and characteristic in you?
Did you know your body is formed to look like his?
Its true no matter what you do or how you change
you are going to be hated because you look like God
because you are human.

Did you know that you are not dead
because you are breathing air
and air is the breath of God
Did you know you are alive because
without blood there is no life
and without life
you would not be here now
Did you know that you are living
when you cry, feel sorrow, anger,
love or happiness.
These should let you know
how free you can be today.

There will never be another you
there is only one of you
there is no rebirth again
You are a person fearfully and wonderfully made
You are more than the outside says
you are a very intelligent person
No one will love you the way you want
I will never love you the way you want
because you want someone to love you
from the inside out

but I am only human too
I need someone to also love me from the inside out
because it is fair and I deserve to be happy
and I will be happy because
that's Gods plan for my life, to be treated good.

God knows everything about you
He knows whats in your heart
isn't he awesome with the name he gave you
to let you know
he wanted to be that close to you?
That's how I see it

I will never love you the way you want
because I am not God
and I am glad
because I probably would have zapped this
world to smithereens along time ago..
if it were me.. hehe.

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Before The Morning
Lyrics by: Josh Wilson

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning
yeah, yeah,
before the morning,
yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning
before the morning, yeah, yeah
before the morning

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Because He Lives lyrics
http://youtu.be/pfgf-R7bPsw

(Verse 1)
God sent his son
They called him Jesus
He came to love
Heal and forgive
He lived and died
To buy my pardon
An empty grave
Is there to prove
My Savior lives

(Chorus)
Because he lives
I can face tomorrow
Because he lives
All fear is gone
Because I know
He holds the future
And life and is worth the living
Just because he lives

(Verse 2)
How sweet to hold
A newborn baby
And feel the pride
And joy he gives
But greater still
The calm assurance
This child can face
Uncertain days
Because he lives

(Chorus)

(Verse 3)
And then one day
I'll cross the river
I'll fight life's fi-
Nal war with pain
And then as death
Gives way to victory
I'll see the lights
Of glory and
I'll know he lives

​

I am not afraid to die
because I know where I will be going
to see Jesus
so if the world threatens my life
why should I be afraid?
I will just be going home
I feel so much peace..

I will not be bullied by fear
I will not be threatened
I will not be controlled
I will not be manipulated
this is my life this is my story
I will not die
he won't allow this
I can't die yet till he calls me home
because God still has a plan for my life
and this day with all my heart
I choose to say
His will be done

the word in me will not be silenced
If i am silenced forever
then a 100 more others will rise up
If I am silenced
then the rocks may cry out screaming
the scriptures
Yes the word is like a scream
even if in just writing

For I am in my Gods hands
I am in his will and in his plan
no piece of wood nor cards nor
money symbols will control me
because these are the things that
God created
they are below him

I will serve him alone.
So if I go home
at least it will be to someone
who really loves me
and never kicks me down.
who makes the choice to
treat me right.

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how you love is what you deserve
by: Lowanla (me)

you deserve to be with the person that acts like you
with the same attitude and everything
You might be happier and better off
don't worry about them loving you
because whoever they are
will fall in love with you
even if they are fake at first
the longer you are with someone
you eventually will become attached
and care about each other,
they will probably love you back
the way you treated me...
they will love you the way you love them

the amount of love you give
is the amount of love you deserve
so I say you should try harder
for whomever you are with from now on.

The love you want is a controlled love
you want a "Thing" or a "tool"
not a woman..
you have no respect for women,
you have no respect for love..
I'm not the person for you
and you are not the one for me
but you already know that
I deserve better than this

I don't want your 'feelings'
if that is all you are..
if you do not love me..
then stop reading here.

cause I will tell you want I want,
I want flowers,
I want dates,
I want romance,
I want anything
that comes with the boyfriend girlfriend thing,
and I also want a future.

because that's what comes with love.
Reality, trust, and making someone
feel like they are worth a lot..
I deserve more than this.

I really just want to move on,
I don't care if I am alone,
cause I know one day
I will find someone who
will buy me flowers,
who will give me my dream,
and I will be happy

because whoever I find
will find me first,
and that man will be a man
who loves just like me.

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Thief in the night
by: Lowanla (me)

There's a Prince returning for me
He sets off on his white horse
thundering through the clouds
like the sun bringing in the dawn
sword in hand pointed onward
a crown set upon his head
eyes burning in a warring fury
he's coming to rescue me
he's going to save me

Can you hear me, Can you hear me
calling I'm calling for you please
carry me away far away
from the injustice, Jesus
take me away, take me away
far away, far away
from the injustice, Jesus

I have been fooled and imprisoned
I have thrown my pearls to the abyss
the pure love you gave me stolen away
and I am chained to the dirt
how did I get here, I've no crown to give you
I am made worthless not fit for your love

Can you hear me, Can you hear me
calling I'm calling for you please
carry me away far away
from the injustice, Jesus
take me away, take me away
far away, far away
from the injustice, Jesus

You wipe the tears from my eyes
as I sit behind the bars
my dignity stripped daily away
how could you love this shattered bride
as I hold your hand behind the line
In shame I can't look into your eyes
you lift my head and you smile
and you tell me I'm yours

Lets go away like a thief in the night
like a thief in the night,
like a thief in the night,
you'll carry me away,
stolen me from my prison
and I'll not look back at this life
that I have left behind
only in your eyes
forever
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Its not okay
by: Lowanla (me)​

its not okay
you can't keep treating me this way
kicking me down until I say I'm done
and the worse thing is you just feel sorry for yourself
instead of actually apologizing,
then you pull me back like you did nothing wrong
like a broken cycle its completely wrong
this isn't love this is hatred how you treat me​

I don't want this anymore
its not okay
I'm done waiting for the man I thought was there
I need someone who will show me what love really means
and you are not the one for me
I'm sorry
but you are just using me
treating me like I'm nothing​

and you can't even see how you are hurting me
I'm done you are not the one.
I don't want you,
I just want to move on,
cause you drained all the love I had for you
and now its all gone
don't think I care anymore..
I'm done.​