My sisters were cruel....I was different from them.....they said hurtful and mean things....don't really know why...all the trouble we got into...I always took them blame...I got the belt every week ......I understood young of Jesus...they aren't believers...I really don't think they understood ...I was the tomboy....athletic and a lot of friends....boys would show uplooking for me to play baseball...or other sports...girls thought I was the enemy...but I wasn't any of that...I just liked sports..the boys often even forgot I was a girl........I felt unloved sad to say.....but God took good care of me..and gave me all the love I needed...i pray for them too....but I haven't seen my family for many years......I just hadto build my own family...I have moved on my own across country and back... Since I was 19. never to return...searching for love....and I found love in Jesus's and I pray they did too.....
I can relate with you...my family is dysfunctional too. They are also abusive. I'm not sure if I am abusive to them too but I see myself as a gentle spirit that is seldom angry. Patience is my strongest quality I guess. I am the peacemaker, the phlegmatic and because of that I'm an easy target for abuse. But when I get angry all hell breaks lose...I make sure they know and they will surely learn not to mess with me again. I just learned recently to make a stand and refused to be abused anymore. I realize what my family needs is tough love.
Its the one who are closest to us that can hurt us the most because we are vulnerable to them. I love my family but they dont know how to value someone who truly cares. They value other people more, those who wont be there when they get sick...those who they think are real but in reality are fake people...Despite that, family will always be family no matter what. God gave us the gift of family, although its not perfect, God has a purpose for that gift. Although I can barely tolerate my family I still love them and i pray that God bless will always protect them and bless them. I lift all that family problems to God. Maybe there are really things that are not meant to be fixed but just accepted as it is...