Seeking Answers (I'm lost)

Does God give up on people? I seem to recall a few people in the bible that God seemed like he gave up on them. Sorry if I didn't post this in the biblical discussion forum but I don't want bible verses forced down my throat and then people arguing who is right and who isn't (I'm sure it hasn't changed since I've been gone). I prefer a face to face with God but in my depravity he is silent. So I'll settle for someone who really knows and has a relationship with him.

My walk with God has led me to this point in my life where God is a distant being who either ignores me in my suffering because I don't have enough faith or has given up on me. I know what most will say it's ME who has given up on him okay...if that's the case then why isn't he helping me come back to him? Why is it everyday I get farther away from the one who I was told loves me like no other? Why is it every day I suffer alone with my constant anxiety and depression? My choices in life I know, probably.

I want to be dead but I love those around me too much to do the very deed that will end my torment but start theirs. Why is it the one person in my life who has given me a little bit of hope of a future that I could be actually happy is my boyfriend who isn't a christian? Sorry for the sarcasm in this post but I'm angry at God and at myself. All those years, when I tried to rely on him to have faith it has led me to this point where i feel like I can't and don't know how to stand on my own two feet emotionally without seeking the power of a higher being that is now so silent in my time of need.

I feel like I'm going crazy and it's going to end very badly for me. Everyday I have panic attacks; everyday I wanna die.

The last bit of hope I do have is about to flicker out and I'm scared of what will happen when it does. Why can't God just talk to me? At this point, I feel like I really do need a miracle and i guess that's why I'm here. Didn't Jesus say if you have the faith of a mustard seed you could move mountains? Well if someone even has that faith enough to pray for a miracle for me then maybe God will listen to them.

Thank you for reading.

praying for you sadkitty and God never, never gives up on people. I believe Jesus has called by name so just renew your mind by reading His word and listen to his voice...He really will speak to you

God has not given up on you. He isn't distant or ignoring you. I have been where you are, feeling like God is the one that abandoned me, gave up on me, is distant from me, but it was actually me who was like that.

Yes, there is suffering and pain in this world. We live on a cursed planet. That is the reality we face. But, through it all, we are loved by God and He makes all things work together for the good of those who love Him.

I once asked God how I could believe that He would be with me in the midst of a trial that I had caused, how I could pray to Him for deliverance and help when it was my own fault. He told me that He would be with me through it, every step of the way, that He would never leave or abandon me, because He loves me, whether the trial is my fault or is the fault of another. I can count on Him to be faithful.

The Bible tells us that no one can pluck us from His hand, that nothing can separate us from the love of Christ, that He will never leave nor forsake us, and that we can do all things through Christ who gives us strength. The Bible tells us that Jesus loved us while we were rebellious sinners, far from Him, and that He chose to die for us, to pursue us, to love us, even though we were sinners. His grace is sufficient.

Truthfully, right now, I am struggling with depression and I feel like it is the worst I've ever experienced. I have been crying out to God about it, for Him to help me. I can't understand why I'm in such a dark place. Yet, what I cling to through it all, every day, is that I am loved and watched over by Him, how amazing and persistent His love is, and how I will come through this to the other side.

Persevere, no matter what. Please, feel free to contact me through messaging, if you need to. Be aware that the devil wants you to give up, wants you to doubt God's love and presence and that He hears your prayers. Trust me when I say that He is listening to every word you say. When it's darkest, that is when we should lift our voices and praise Him. It is through praise that we leave our self and our darkness and remember how amazing our God is. Through praise, we release the fear, anger, doubt, loss, depression, hate, all the distractions, and we are opened up to receive peace, comfort, strength, joy, and healing.

Father God I pray for sad kitty... I pray that you would speak to her heart and that she would have ears to hear your voice. Lord you love her and you promise never to leave her. You sent your son so that she would have abundant life and be set free. Lord you are faithful and you comfort the brokenhearted. I give you the honor and praise in Jesus name amen.

God is doing a work in you, even if it doesn't feel like it.

Hi sadkitty, it's nice to meet you.
Have you received the Holy Spirit and experienced Him and at this particular point in time He has gone silent?

If so, I can maybe help, because this is something I have some understanding on, having gone through it a few times.