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I know there is more to a toxic body than relationships, it's also what you put in your body...the types of food you eat. But I've been hearing lately about how toxic relationships can attribute to cancer, etc. I don't want to blame my husband for my adrenal fatigue, but he is a very difficult man to live with. He has a really short temper and gets mad at every little thing. When i'm in a car with him, it is extremley stressful..he yells at everyone for driving too fast, too slow, or when they cut him off he goes ballistic!
If i wasn't a Christian and didn't believe marriage was forever no matter what, i would've divorced him a long, long time ago. But now I'm seeing it's taking toll on my health. You can't change someone, all you can do is pray for them as much as you can. I feel so trapped. Like i said, i don't want to blame anyone, but i think my husband could actually stress me into getting things much worse than Adrenal fatigue, like cancer. We all have our crosses to bear, but my faith keeps me from leaving him because i know it's wrong. Let me get this straight - he is NOT emotionally abusive...he actually yells more when I talk badly about myself because he cares so much. He's told me countless times that "this is just the way I am. I'm a passionate person.I talk loud." I thank God he's laid of the booze these last couple years...that used to exasperate the problem even more...he turned into a real monster.
I finally solved part of my health puzzle by eating as healthy as possible and taking homeopathic supplements, but it probably won't matter that much in the long run if i'm married to someone who has serious anger issues. He completely denies this, however and says he's doesn't have anger issues...he said he's just very passionate and expressive and this is just a part of his personality I need to accept. "i'm just being myself" and "don't try to change who i am" I hear that a lot from him and he basically says i just need to accept who he is. He has already accepted me how I am. But the super-sensititve side of me still shakes/flinches every time he yells. I guess i've never gotten used to it no matter how hard i try.
It's really frustrating that i have no support system, like i don't haveone at my church yet, or have friends (Christian or otherwise) and i'm an only child so there is really no where i can go and seperate for a little while...not even a weekend to get away...hotels are wayyyyy out of our budget. So i'm really stuck. I guess i'm just asking for prayer for my husband. Because only God can change his heart, and by some miracle his loud "expressive shouty" personality too. I know miracles can happen.
If i wasn't a Christian and didn't believe marriage was forever no matter what, i would've divorced him a long, long time ago. But now I'm seeing it's taking toll on my health. You can't change someone, all you can do is pray for them as much as you can. I feel so trapped. Like i said, i don't want to blame anyone, but i think my husband could actually stress me into getting things much worse than Adrenal fatigue, like cancer. We all have our crosses to bear, but my faith keeps me from leaving him because i know it's wrong. Let me get this straight - he is NOT emotionally abusive...he actually yells more when I talk badly about myself because he cares so much. He's told me countless times that "this is just the way I am. I'm a passionate person.I talk loud." I thank God he's laid of the booze these last couple years...that used to exasperate the problem even more...he turned into a real monster.
I finally solved part of my health puzzle by eating as healthy as possible and taking homeopathic supplements, but it probably won't matter that much in the long run if i'm married to someone who has serious anger issues. He completely denies this, however and says he's doesn't have anger issues...he said he's just very passionate and expressive and this is just a part of his personality I need to accept. "i'm just being myself" and "don't try to change who i am" I hear that a lot from him and he basically says i just need to accept who he is. He has already accepted me how I am. But the super-sensititve side of me still shakes/flinches every time he yells. I guess i've never gotten used to it no matter how hard i try.
It's really frustrating that i have no support system, like i don't haveone at my church yet, or have friends (Christian or otherwise) and i'm an only child so there is really no where i can go and seperate for a little while...not even a weekend to get away...hotels are wayyyyy out of our budget. So i'm really stuck. I guess i'm just asking for prayer for my husband. Because only God can change his heart, and by some miracle his loud "expressive shouty" personality too. I know miracles can happen.