Me too!
Yup!
...No!
Salvation is not like something that you take to the casino and gamble with. Salvation is not something that you take to the circus and juggle around with at the dog and pony show.
Salvation is something that you love and cherish and take good care of. It is the Pearl of Great Price. Jesus gave His very own life's blood to make it available to you. Satan tries to cheapen and devalue it with garbage like Calvinistic OSAS, but if one reads and studies the Bible, they will quickly see that Calvinism is a hoax and a lie. Satan has found that the easiest way to attack the Church is to plant dark seeds within it using false teachers in sheep's clothing.
Hebrews 10:
35
Cast not away therefore your confidence, which hath great recompence of reward. 36For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might
receive the promise. 37For yet a little while, and he that shall come will come, and will not tarry. 38Now the just shall live by faith: but
if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him. 39But we are not of
them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that
believe to the saving of the soul.
The modern "Church" is in a sad state indeed. Few have any interest in fighting the good fight and contending for the faith anymore. Apathy abounds.