Depression, anxiety and hell.

This I am in process daily learning how deep this truth is, at least for me

As a man thinks, so is he (Proverbs 23:7)

1. Proverbs 12:15
   A fool thinks he needs no advice, but a wise man listens to others.
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2. Proverbs 13:16
   A wise man thinks ahead; a fool doesn’t and even brags about it!
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3. Proverbs 15:28
   A good man thinks before he speaks; the evil man pours out his evil words without a thought.
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4. Proverbs 16:25
   Before every man there lies a wide and pleasant road he thinks is right, but it ends in death.
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5. Proverbs 18:11
   The rich man thinks of his wealth as an impregnable defense, a high wall of safety. What a dreamer!
6. Job 11:5
   Oh, that God would speak and tell you what he thinks!
7. Ecclesiastes 7:4
   Yes, a wise man thinks much of death, while the fool thinks only of having a good time now.
8. Luke 8:18
   So be careful how you listen; for whoever has, to him shall be given more; and whoever does not have, even what he thinks he has shall be taken away from him.”
9. • Romans 3:18
     They care nothing about God nor what he thinks of them.
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   • Romans 14:13
     So don’t criticize each other anymore. Try instead to live in such a way that you will never make your brother stumble by letting him see you doing something he thinks is wrong.
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   • Romans 14:23
     But anyone who believes that something he wants to do is wrong shouldn’t do it. He sins if he does, for he thinksit is wrong, and so for him it is wrong. Anything that is done apart from what he feels is right is sin.

Okay, seeing this now:
I cannot get angry without anger thought(s). What? But I get angry so fast in a split second!
I have captivated thought(s) of anger, that is what has gotten in control of me, so instantly.
It goes deeper, Lust of this world, for others, to like me, even love me by what I do right according to them. I can fool others Ha, Ha, Ninja from resident Alien
I was brought up on reward and punishment, maybe y'll too. When I got punished and told to go to my room and stay there until I tell you to come out.
Was I there????????? Physically (unless I snuck out the window somehow) yet no matter, I was not there, I was in my mindset, figuring out how to not go through this again, I bet others also.
You see, I became the God of me to get away with what I wanted over what others wanted, and acted as behaving to get away with stuff behind my parents and others backs, anyone else?
God tells us, to do and not do. Is what God says best for us or not? (Jeremiah 29:11)
God says do not harm your neighbors, not even yourself, is that way the best for us the people or not?
I see it is, therefore God I need you to teach me the truth, in your laws, (Psalm 1:1-4) I trust you will, I trust you love me, and all others too, because Son went to that cross to a physical death once for all Hebrews 10:10. Who else would do that, I admit I would not, would anyone else reading this here?
Might be time to turn to God, having every person's best interest at heart. I keep my hand off the stove now, been burnt too many times