Hi i am a traitor

I am unsure because i am a sinner and do not really follow the commandments of christ

And a true christian for me is those people who walk with christ who follow his commandments

It is written that if you love him you will keep his commandments then i don't love him since i don't keep his commandments

If i am not a christian but a believer then what am i that is why it is unsure

No. Because you can't believe in the bible and karma, as I explained. Karma is a Hindu originated belief that requires the God of the bible to not exist in order to be true.

Also most people that use the word karma seem to misunderstand it. But simply put the concept of karma goes against the notion of the God of the bible. You can't have both because they each rely on spiritual laws that are contradictory.
Karma requires that no personal, interactive God exists and that "god" is nothing more than a cosmic mirror that reflects your works back to you and is incapable of personal connection.
Also when you hear people say things about what "the universe" has done for them, it's the same thing. Just a spiritual blob.

No such thing as karma?
But what happened to me 2 weeks ago the moment i planned the things that i should because it tells me that i should do it and let wrath takes over me my emotion left i don't feel anything and it seems that i lost purpose the first time i've felt that i was like what just happened the 2nd time it happened i realized that he was telling me something but i do not know what it was then the 3rd time it happened again this time i've lost my strength on my right and left arm and i've broke my right arm due to me punching someone and been to a 2 veterinarian to fix my arm and it hurts was like flipping in pain worst than being punch and that is not karma?

i have already realized the 2nd time i planned but still continued and now i'm here

Sorry i seldom speak in english so i'm noy good in this language

Do you believe that Jesus died for your sins, and that He alone is your salvation? Have you confessed with your mouth that He is your Lord and Savior? Have you asked Him to come into your heart?

It is written that if you love him you will keep his commandments then i don't love him since i don't keep his commandments

I've confessed in my head just that it's been corrupted nowadays and it's spouting curses now i only pray with my mouth whispering cause i can't control my mind

Yeah i believed that emmanuel was the son of God he was also the word and that word was God he was also called Jesus the alpha and omega he was sent here by his father who is the almighty God that we might be saved through him that also he died on the cross for our sins and came back to life the flesh son of a virgin and he will come again soon

Have ask for him but few hours have passed i betrayed him over and over....

Out of all the wonderful, helpful, loving posts to respond to you chose KARMA? Nothing wrong with responding to that, but I think you need to go back and read the encouraging posts, and meditate on THEM.

I've confessed in my head just that it's been corrupted nowadays and it's spouting curses now i only pray with my mouth whispering cause i can't control my mind

Yeah i believed that emmanuel was the son of God he was also the word and that word was God he was also called Jesus the alpha and omega he was sent here by his father who is the almighty God that we might be saved through him that also he died on the cross for our sins and came back to life the flesh son of a virgin and he will come again soon

Have ask for him but few hours have passed i betrayed him over and over....

I've confessed in my head just that it's been corrupted nowadays and it's spouting curses now i only pray with my mouth whispering cause i can't control my mind

You see, we become children of God, and children do not always respond correctly.
As a parent I give my children commandments (RULES) because I know better than they do and want what is best for them.
They do not always follow the rules, sometimes it is because they are stubborn and flat out want to do what ever they want to, other times it is simply because they are children and respond in childish ways.
Just because my children do not always follow the rules does not mean that they do not love me, and it does not mean that I do not STILL LOVE THEM. I love them UNCONDITIONALLY.

The Christian walk is not an easy one, but it's the right one. None of us are sinless as long as we bare the burden of a fleshly body. What we try to be is blameless. Staying focused on Jesus Christ is what we are to do, no matter what our circumstances. He has already forgiven our sins past, present and future because of our faith in Him. And by God's Grace, no matter what pain and punishment we have to go through here on earth, our rewards in Heaven are so much greater! So please, stay the course. God loves us and true love is very forgiving.

Then say you're sorry. And stop dabbling in occult-like practices. Go to an actual certified doctor, and not some sketchy so-called masseuse.

Out of all the wonderful, helpful, loving posts to respond to you chose KARMA? Nothing wrong with responding to that, but I think you need to go back and read the encouraging posts, and meditate on THEM.

You cannot betray Him through acts. He is greater than anything you have done. That said, the good man is not the one that never falls down, he is the one that gets up. And then gets up again, and again, and again. Keep getting up.

Do you feel like you have been possessed by a devil? Would you like us to pray along those lines?

Sometimes i do like that other day months ago out of nowhere someone's telling me to get that knife and just kill that man even though that man haven't done anything to me and i am not angry with him that was the first time i've ever experience that i want to kill

The fact that previously i can't even kill a flesh that i need to kill i really can't even kill a rat lol it just gets in my head and that feeling that crushing it's squishy head i even use a hammer to do that didn't expect that it was too soft makes me want to vomit

After i felt those weird feelings that want to kill someone i also almost just did it lol yeah can:t believe that i almost did that unthinkable thing anyway after that my mind gets worsen

Please answer the second part of my question; do you want to be made free of this demonic oppression?