I can't believe what I'm hearing! Someone who's going through what I went through for 15 years!! My children's father and I have known each other since we were in junior high school. We were always good friends, until we turned 21 and decided to start dating. I had a daughter when I was seventeen from a previoius relationship, but this someone I'm talking about has helped me raise my/our daughter for most of her life, so I consider him the father of both my children. Anyway, I had wanted to follow Christ for a long time, I would go to Church and ask him to go with me, but he would refuse. He said he believed in God, but he wasn't "religious", so, something as important to me as Church was not something he was willing to try. I asked him to marry me several times throughout our relationship, but he would say simply, "no, I'm not interested in being married, don't we live as a married couple already?" What he didn't understand is that I needed to live the way I thought the Lord wanted me to live, and I began to second guess our relationship. Eventually, after fifteen years of the same issues, I decided to end our partnership. It's been five months now, and I never thought I could survive without him, but here I am, and I owe it all to God. He gave me the strength to follow His path. My children't father and I are very good to each other. I help him when I can, and he helps me when he can, but we are no longer a pair. It's tough to think of a future when he'll find someone else, but I pray God helps me, when that time comes, and I pray that God helps him find someone more suitable for him.
For now, I wonder what it would be like to meet someone who loves God and who wants to grow in his relationship with Him. But if that day doesn't come, I'm never alone, because God is with me...
Oh Man! Thanks for letting me vent!!! Sigh!!! I've had that in my chest forever now!!!