Hi believer4ever. This is the only way that I can answer your question:
Joh 13:34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.
Joh 13:35 By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.
I will pray with you though regarding this. Would you post a prayer request in the prayer forum?
Bless you very much and welcome to CC.
Sincerely and with much love in Christ,
Steven