Ok my case is very complicated because usually i dont know what to do and just swim into the draft or in other words just enjoy what God is giving me. Well yes i had a man and we have child. No document because really i dont believe a sign can change something. No wedding as well. But although i lived around many boys even i was in school for construction/ building, i never like a person because i notice bad things in every person - inside and outside. So only a lie about person could make me see the perfect man. Ok he is a liar but still i like many things about how he thinks. First i like that he can leave any person. Second he can broke a laptop and never regret. And so on. Ok i know that s not normal but Jesus teach us to sepatare from evil so that man teached me a stuff or two. So i loved him (dont ask me what is love)- i believe i did love him. Then God opened my eyes and i saw he is bad person and we sepatare. I dont bother if my "husband" have 10 wifes. Adultery is not a problem but it WaS the reason in front of God for separation. So i feel free to write down "looking for a mate". But i m not sure what God want from me. I believe He will give me what He want me to have- in other words- if God make him "alive" (he is dead in my eyes) i will accept him. If God send me another christian- i m willing to accept although i dont want another man- first because i dont want my son to think i cannot hold my legs closed, and second because i feel like adultery when i think to touch another man (because i really believe God created for every man one woman and viceversa - so i gave myself for that man already). Yes i had boyfriends in past but it was before that man. Some advices?