Sister!
GOD is good that there is a place like this to come to for support and prayer, yes?
Your post strikes a chord with me, loud and clear, as I remember feeling the same as you when I was a new, very young, army wife expecting my first child. At that time, I lived literally across the country from anyone and anything I had known and loved aside from my new husband. I remember how the hours seemed to drag on and on, and I could never know when my husband would be coming home. I also had no vehicle and lived in upstate New York where there are gray skies and snow for nine months out of the year. The ingredients for a situational depression were all there, then add to the mix all of the physiological and psychological variables that come with pregnancy, well, it was a pretty good recipe for a full-blown clinical depression. I know exactly how you feel, I honestly do. Maybe I can help?
I think one of the most difficult things about depression, is that healing from it requires a commitment to hard work on the part of the person healing, and by nature, depression steals any ounce of motivation that one might be able to conjure, and then, one just stops trying to conjure motivation altogether. I can tell you, that there are some well-researched steps that you can take that WILL help, but it is going to sound un-doable given your current condition. BUT IT IS DO-ABLE. Part of my professional life was spent caring for the severely and chronically mentally ill in my state, and these are the suggestions that I am going to put before you now have helped more people than I can count attain a full recovery from serious, life-threatening depression.
First though, it doesn't sound like you are experiencing thoughts of death, but if you are, if you are starting to have fleeting thoughts of not being able to go on, or not wanting to go on living, get yourself to a hospital emergency room RIGHT NOW and tell them what is going on with you. You may need additional support to help you heal. Having addressed that issue, there are some things that we can control with depression, namely, how we manage it, and there are some things that we can not control such as the development of it in the first place. The following are some things to consider that you may find helpful:
Do you have a daily routine at all, and if so, what does that look like? The first thing you must strive for is simply regulating your body, especially with your pregnancy. Sleep, eat nutritiously, get yourself ready for the day, socialize at least once, do one small chore every day, and go for a walk or do something physically active. Medication can help with sleep and also with some other neurochemical adjustments, but the same things can be achieved for most people through alternative, natural means sometimes as well. The social aspect is very important, and I understand that it is the LAST thing one wants to do when depressed, but scheduling in social connection and small goal achievement is critical to your emotional well being.
So, physical and emotional starting points have been offered, but also keep spirituality in mind. Continue to come here for prayer support. Be reading the Bible, but if you don't have the energy to read it, just listening to it will help. Listen to podcasts with life-giving content.
I am so sorry that you are feeling this way, and I also know that when you are in the middle of this particular storm, it seems like it will go on forever, but depression can be managed. Call out and seek the GOD again. He will help all who come running to Him. He will.
Hang in there, I know its difficult, but you have important purposes of the GOD of the universe to fulfill!
Hello. Probably none of you remember me. It has been over a year since I’ve been on this site. Since then I joined the army and left it a 6 months later. I moved in with my now fiancé. I have been with him for almost a year and love him dearly, too much I think. I am 7 and a half months pregnant with our first baby. I am struggling with depression atm. He is always at work cause it is really busy at work atm. I am basically at home alone all the time and don’t have any friends here that I can hang out with. I only see him for a couple of hours each day (if that) sleeping hours don’t count. I’m really struggling with that. I miss spending time with him soo much. I’m at a really low point. I’m struggling to eat and do anything but lie in bed and sleep. As I’m writing this I’m crying. The only thing holding me together is my baby. I used to believe in God now I don’t what to believe. Please any support now would help..
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