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This week coming i am making doctor appointments.
They want to run a scope thru my mouth and all. Plus they going to do genetic testings.
My insurrance finally kicked in i got Blue cross blue shield from work.
Plus i get two paid vacation days. So i will use them just for that.
I wont discuss too much here because yesh. Anyway the disorder my mom had was not a good one.
Today my stumach was ok, but tonight not so much.
Imma just maybe see if i can find a soup to eat and watch a movie.
Its time to unwind and take a moment and reflect.
Prayer will be said God has been with me this long and He will be with me thriugh it all and i know you all will too.
I put on a brave face like mom did, she was a trooper. The thing with HHT is yes u can have a full life.
And since this issue began that is what i been trying to do. But u never know kaybe it reqlly is nothing after all?
Its very possible because ky best friend said his dad and brothet have some same aynptoms and all.
Other than that i feel fantastic just a little tired. But i can manage.
I hafta admit i did something stupid. I should have not left home.
At times i grt bound and detetmjned lol
Thats hardheadedness but u know mom always done what she had to to feel good.
So now im fallowing in her steps.
She instilled so much into her six kids that nothing we can or do makes anything less managable.
She held love like she held truth. She believed in God were one of my sisters like buddha lol.
I love my sister we always get into discussions but i always say lets just change the subject ok? Its not worth it.
I try to be kind and at times i just want to walk miles.
Walking is my antidepressant. It is also a way to think and manage my emotions.
It is all i ever known.
I have always said ky family is in Heaven only but i am wrong my family is on earth also and u all are it.
Even the people at work are my family. When i have a down day they all come to talk to me as i woupd them.
Its a bond that makes a family. Yes i may take things wrong at tjmes but i mean no harm in it.
We all are in different parts of the world.
So i give a huge apologee to those i may have ofended and taken wrong.
That is not me, i am full of love and life. Its nothing personal and i love every single one of u like my own family 😭.
Im fine its just i want to do the right thing ya know? Sometimes i take it out of context and too far without meaning to.
Thats me being human lol
But this is me being real, i have acted in some ways that were very unrealistic such as takkng things wrong.
And i feel i owe these people an apologee because when i read something or a responce u know? Its online and its easily to be taken wrong.
We all do it, its who we are.
The thing about my singles post i took out of context a little i thaught different and he set me right by saying he was only agreeing.
Yes we had our differences but who dont right? It dont mean i dont love him like a brother any less.
Yes before we had our little issue, mainly from my end but ya know its life lol
But i owe him the apologee tge most.
I have no problem with anyone here what so ever.
I say God loves u and ao do I and i hold that to heart. Its because i do love u all as my family.
We will have heated discussions and all i mean what family dont right?
No one is perfect, sometimes people hafta read between the lines and at times i need to as well.
Love should never be taken for granted brothers and sisters. No matter if it is a friendship or a relationship.
It is all about that profound respect u have for someone that makes life more enjoyable.
The chaplain at work he and i are good friends. We talk at times and i have full respect for him.
Lol ok i rambled enough time for my movie 🙃😁🤠
They want to run a scope thru my mouth and all. Plus they going to do genetic testings.
My insurrance finally kicked in i got Blue cross blue shield from work.
Plus i get two paid vacation days. So i will use them just for that.
I wont discuss too much here because yesh. Anyway the disorder my mom had was not a good one.
Today my stumach was ok, but tonight not so much.
Imma just maybe see if i can find a soup to eat and watch a movie.
Its time to unwind and take a moment and reflect.
Prayer will be said God has been with me this long and He will be with me thriugh it all and i know you all will too.
I put on a brave face like mom did, she was a trooper. The thing with HHT is yes u can have a full life.
And since this issue began that is what i been trying to do. But u never know kaybe it reqlly is nothing after all?
Its very possible because ky best friend said his dad and brothet have some same aynptoms and all.
Other than that i feel fantastic just a little tired. But i can manage.
I hafta admit i did something stupid. I should have not left home.
At times i grt bound and detetmjned lol
Thats hardheadedness but u know mom always done what she had to to feel good.
So now im fallowing in her steps.
She instilled so much into her six kids that nothing we can or do makes anything less managable.
She held love like she held truth. She believed in God were one of my sisters like buddha lol.
I love my sister we always get into discussions but i always say lets just change the subject ok? Its not worth it.
I try to be kind and at times i just want to walk miles.
Walking is my antidepressant. It is also a way to think and manage my emotions.
It is all i ever known.
I have always said ky family is in Heaven only but i am wrong my family is on earth also and u all are it.
Even the people at work are my family. When i have a down day they all come to talk to me as i woupd them.
Its a bond that makes a family. Yes i may take things wrong at tjmes but i mean no harm in it.
We all are in different parts of the world.
So i give a huge apologee to those i may have ofended and taken wrong.
That is not me, i am full of love and life. Its nothing personal and i love every single one of u like my own family 😭.
Im fine its just i want to do the right thing ya know? Sometimes i take it out of context and too far without meaning to.
Thats me being human lol
But this is me being real, i have acted in some ways that were very unrealistic such as takkng things wrong.
And i feel i owe these people an apologee because when i read something or a responce u know? Its online and its easily to be taken wrong.
We all do it, its who we are.
The thing about my singles post i took out of context a little i thaught different and he set me right by saying he was only agreeing.
Yes we had our differences but who dont right? It dont mean i dont love him like a brother any less.
Yes before we had our little issue, mainly from my end but ya know its life lol
But i owe him the apologee tge most.
I have no problem with anyone here what so ever.
I say God loves u and ao do I and i hold that to heart. Its because i do love u all as my family.
We will have heated discussions and all i mean what family dont right?
No one is perfect, sometimes people hafta read between the lines and at times i need to as well.
Love should never be taken for granted brothers and sisters. No matter if it is a friendship or a relationship.
It is all about that profound respect u have for someone that makes life more enjoyable.
The chaplain at work he and i are good friends. We talk at times and i have full respect for him.
Lol ok i rambled enough time for my movie 🙃😁🤠
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