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sean58

sean58

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Hello to all here :)
I feel that I need to add some detail to my very short introduction now that I'm starting to find my feet here.
First I'd like to say thank you to you all for making me feel so welcome :) and I feel that I should start by saying I hope that you will bear with me when I make mistakes on here, I am new to the Christian faith and have a lot to learn but I would like to share with you all how I came to be posting today.
I have led a life that like many didn't have a very good start in life, abuse in many forms and from an early age had to take care of myself. I have been a soldier, a police officer and laterly worked in community/social work. I never sought Gods love and guidance. I qualified in science which only (in my case certainly) pushed me further away from God. I was too self reliant and proud and I have to admit that I denied God many times.
My life spirelled out of control and I did many things that I'm ashamed of and although I also did many selfless things I could only seem to focus on the negative. No positive direction followed along with depression and anxiety. I have sinned, shamed myself and not understood the beautiful gift that God had given me. I had learned a lot but really the more thatI learned the less I understood.
I recently found myself alone with no friends because I couldn't accept help from others and the more people tried to help me the more I pushed them away. I sat at home alone and every day was thinking "I just don't want to live any more" and started making plans to end my life. Then I was flicking through the channels on tv, not really able to focus on what I was looking at and I came accross TBN/UK. A lady was talking and leading prayer and I went to change the channel but I just couldn't. The lady(sorry I didn't catch her name) was offering a prayer for people who were suffering and asked for people watching to touch the part of the body in which they felt pain and to pray to God to be healed. I placed my hands on my head and asked God to please heal me and to enter into my heart and to guide me.
THE most amazing thing happened and I don't know how to explain it fully but I felt lighter, and just happy. I wish that I could explain it better to you all. I thought to myself "Why would God bother with me? I'm nothing. I don't deserve for God to help me" But a voice kept telling me "God loves you and forgives you and has always been there waiting for you to let Him into your life" I have to say that I broke down and cried for the first time in my life, but I felt that they were tears of absolute joy. I thanked God out loud for the warmth He had brought to me. An incredible experience and one that I still can't do justice with words.
I thank God every day that now. I know that my path will show me many things that I will find hard to understand but I now know that with Gods love and guidance I will find my way and pray that I will be able to live a more positive life in His name.
Sorry for the long post but I just wanted to share this with you all and to say God bless you all and thank you all for taking the time to read.
 
ProphetExcalibur

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sean58 said:
Hello to all here :)
I feel that I need to add some detail to my very short introduction now that I'm starting to find my feet here.
First I'd like to say thank you to you all for making me feel so welcome :) and I feel that I should start by saying I hope that you will bear with me when I make mistakes on here, I am new to the Christian faith and have a lot to learn but I would like to share with you all how I came to be posting today.
I have led a life that like many didn't have a very good start in life, abuse in many forms and from an early age had to take care of myself. I have been a soldier, a police officer and laterly worked in community/social work. I never sought Gods love and guidance. I qualified in science which only (in my case certainly) pushed me further away from God. I was too self reliant and proud and I have to admit that I denied God many times.
My life spirelled out of control and I did many things that I'm ashamed of and although I also did many selfless things I could only seem to focus on the negative. No positive direction followed along with depression and anxiety. I have sinned, shamed myself and not understood the beautiful gift that God had given me. I had learned a lot but really the more thatI learned the less I understood.
I recently found myself alone with no friends because I couldn't accept help from others and the more people tried to help me the more I pushed them away. I sat at home alone and every day was thinking "I just don't want to live any more" and started making plans to end my life. Then I was flicking through the channels on tv, not really able to focus on what I was looking at and I came accross TBN/UK. A lady was talking and leading prayer and I went to change the channel but I just couldn't. The lady(sorry I didn't catch her name) was offering a prayer for people who were suffering and asked for people watching to touch the part of the body in which they felt pain and to pray to God to be healed. I placed my hands on my head and asked God to please heal me and to enter into my heart and to guide me.
THE most amazing thing happened and I don't know how to explain it fully but I felt lighter, and just happy. I wish that I could explain it better to you all. I thought to myself "Why would God bother with me? I'm nothing. I don't deserve for God to help me" But a voice kept telling me "God loves you and forgives you and has always been there waiting for you to let Him into your life" I have to say that I broke down and cried for the first time in my life, but I felt that they were tears of absolute joy. I thanked God out loud for the warmth He had brought to me. An incredible experience and one that I still can't do justice with words.
I thank God every day that now. I know that my path will show me many things that I will find hard to understand but I now know that with Gods love and guidance I will find my way and pray that I will be able to live a more positive life in His name.
Sorry for the long post but I just wanted to share this with you all and to say God bless you all and thank you all for taking the time to read.
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Good for you welcome to the CC 👍 one more time!!! 🤠
 
Bingo

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sean58 said:
Hello to all here :)
I feel that I need to add some detail to my very short introduction now that I'm starting to find my feet here.
First I'd like to say thank you to you all for making me feel so welcome :) and I feel that I should start by saying I hope that you will bear with me when I make mistakes on here, I am new to the Christian faith and have a lot to learn but I would like to share with you all how I came to be posting today.
I have led a life that like many didn't have a very good start in life, abuse in many forms and from an early age had to take care of myself. I have been a soldier, a police officer and laterly worked in community/social work. I never sought Gods love and guidance. I qualified in science which only (in my case certainly) pushed me further away from God. I was too self reliant and proud and I have to admit that I denied God many times.
My life spirelled out of control and I did many things that I'm ashamed of and although I also did many selfless things I could only seem to focus on the negative. No positive direction followed along with depression and anxiety. I have sinned, shamed myself and not understood the beautiful gift that God had given me. I had learned a lot but really the more thatI learned the less I understood.
I recently found myself alone with no friends because I couldn't accept help from others and the more people tried to help me the more I pushed them away. I sat at home alone and every day was thinking "I just don't want to live any more" and started making plans to end my life. Then I was flicking through the channels on tv, not really able to focus on what I was looking at and I came accross TBN/UK. A lady was talking and leading prayer and I went to change the channel but I just couldn't. The lady(sorry I didn't catch her name) was offering a prayer for people who were suffering and asked for people watching to touch the part of the body in which they felt pain and to pray to God to be healed. I placed my hands on my head and asked God to please heal me and to enter into my heart and to guide me.
THE most amazing thing happened and I don't know how to explain it fully but I felt lighter, and just happy. I wish that I could explain it better to you all. I thought to myself "Why would God bother with me? I'm nothing. I don't deserve for God to help me" But a voice kept telling me "God loves you and forgives you and has always been there waiting for you to let Him into your life" I have to say that I broke down and cried for the first time in my life, but I felt that they were tears of absolute joy. I thanked God out loud for the warmth He had brought to me. An incredible experience and one that I still can't do justice with words.
I thank God every day that now. I know that my path will show me many things that I will find hard to understand but I now know that with Gods love and guidance I will find my way and pray that I will be able to live a more positive life in His name.
Sorry for the long post but I just wanted to share this with you all and to say God bless you all and thank you all for taking the time to read.
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"Thank you for sharing. Make no mistake, a personal 'spiritual experience' cannot be fully explained...
it has to be lived...believe it. From this side of the 'glass' ...I once was lost, now I am found."
'Praise God'....I came...I came to...I came to believe.'
 

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Bingo said:
"Thank you for sharing. Make no mistake, a personal 'spiritual experience' cannot be fully explained...
it has to be lived...believe it. From this side of the 'glass' ...I once was lost, now I am found."
'Praise God'....I came...I came to...I came to believe.'
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Thank you for the reply Bingo. My head is still spinning with the implications and I'm both elated and terrified at the same time but I've never been happier, can't stop smiling, nobody recognises me :)
 
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Hi sean...
So glad you are here , and it was lovely reading your testimony , praise God and thank You Jesus...

I was saved 3 yrs ago , and I understand where you are coming from , I was so happy and could not stop smiling , God had touched me deeply...

May I ask you , have you repented and gave your life to Christ , I am only asking as I did not see you mention this...

I would suggest reading the Gospel of John , I am only saying this as it helped me in understanding of my Salvation...

Welcome once again to CC , stick around , there are tons of brothers and sisters in Christ who are new , are maturing , and growing in Christ all the time...xox...
 
sean58

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Rosemaryx said:
Hi sean...
So glad you are here , and it was lovely reading your testimony , praise God and thank You Jesus...

I was saved 3 yrs ago , and I understand where you are coming from , I was so happy and could not stop smiling , God had touched me deeply...

May I ask you , have you repented and gave your life to Christ , I am only asking as I did not see you mention this...

I would suggest reading the Gospel of John , I am only saying this as it helped me in understanding of my Salvation...

Welcome once again to CC , stick around , there are tons of brothers and sisters in Christ who are new , are maturing , and growing in Christ all the time...xox...
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Hi Rosemary and thanks for your kind reply. Yes I Have repented and given my life to God and like you I cannot stop smiling :) BIG HAPPY SMILES. I also cannot stop filling up and sheading real tears of gratitude, it's like the negativity that filled me up before is being driven out and I still can't believe how deeply God has touched me and filled me up with love. I say I can't believe but really I do believe but my head is spinning. Thank you for the suggestion to read the Gospel of John and I will follow up on that.
Thank you again and God bless you.
 
Bingo

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"To be crystal clear, from this side of the 'glass'....ones idea of being 'saved' is most often a
'church thing' and leaves a sad heart from here, being that many are deceived with grave
consequences, but I am not to judge ones 'religious belief', at least they have hope.
A spiritual experience shall be a personal 'encounter' with no witnesses, as God has a
purpose not of my understanding. But an unexplainable 'event' some may be subtle and
also a sudden profound happening, for myself, there never has been any doubt of my
spiritual 'enlightenment'....now of some two decades ago...make no mistake...a worldly
physical human experience is one thing...a profound spiritual 'enlightenment' experience
shall be in another realm of God's nature...believe it!"......:)
'Praise God'........:)
 

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sean58 said:
Hello to all here :)
I feel that I need to add some detail to my very short introduction now that I'm starting to find my feet here.
First I'd like to say thank you to you all for making me feel so welcome :) and I feel that I should start by saying I hope that you will bear with me when I make mistakes on here, I am new to the Christian faith and have a lot to learn but I would like to share with you all how I came to be posting today.
I have led a life that like many didn't have a very good start in life, abuse in many forms and from an early age had to take care of myself. I have been a soldier, a police officer and laterly worked in community/social work. I never sought Gods love and guidance. I qualified in science which only (in my case certainly) pushed me further away from God. I was too self reliant and proud and I have to admit that I denied God many times.
My life spirelled out of control and I did many things that I'm ashamed of and although I also did many selfless things I could only seem to focus on the negative. No positive direction followed along with depression and anxiety. I have sinned, shamed myself and not understood the beautiful gift that God had given me. I had learned a lot but really the more thatI learned the less I understood.
I recently found myself alone with no friends because I couldn't accept help from others and the more people tried to help me the more I pushed them away. I sat at home alone and every day was thinking "I just don't want to live any more" and started making plans to end my life. Then I was flicking through the channels on tv, not really able to focus on what I was looking at and I came accross TBN/UK. A lady was talking and leading prayer and I went to change the channel but I just couldn't. The lady(sorry I didn't catch her name) was offering a prayer for people who were suffering and asked for people watching to touch the part of the body in which they felt pain and to pray to God to be healed. I placed my hands on my head and asked God to please heal me and to enter into my heart and to guide me.
THE most amazing thing happened and I don't know how to explain it fully but I felt lighter, and just happy. I wish that I could explain it better to you all. I thought to myself "Why would God bother with me? I'm nothing. I don't deserve for God to help me" But a voice kept telling me "God loves you and forgives you and has always been there waiting for you to let Him into your life" I have to say that I broke down and cried for the first time in my life, but I felt that they were tears of absolute joy. I thanked God out loud for the warmth He had brought to me. An incredible experience and one that I still can't do justice with words.
I thank God every day that now. I know that my path will show me many things that I will find hard to understand but I now know that with Gods love and guidance I will find my way and pray that I will be able to live a more positive life in His name.
Sorry for the long post but I just wanted to share this with you all and to say God bless you all and thank you all for taking the time to read.
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Praise the Lord, God has His hand on you. I've have fav shows on TBN and have been watching it for ages. So nice to hear your testimony. God bless you!
 
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TabinRivCA said:
Praise the Lord, God has His hand on you. I've have fav shows on TBN and have been watching it for ages. So nice to hear your testimony. God bless you!
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Thank you watching it as we speak, I feel like the luckiest man alive :) God bless you...
 
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Sean, Thank you for sharing your testimony! This song comes to mind as I am reading: (I put the lyrics below)


I Smile (performed by Russ Lee)
Lost and all alone
Looking for a reason
for being in this crazy world
Trying to go on, looking for the answers
To the questions and there You were
From the moment You appeared
Everything became so clear
I'm so glad that You're here, Lord
I smile when I think about
The way You've turned my life around
I smile when I think about
The happiness in You I've found
I'm so amazed at what Your love has done
And when I think the best is yet to come
I smile!
I smile!
Wandering the dark, lost in the confusion
I thought I was losing my mind for sure
I searched with all my heart, looking for direction
Something to believe in and there You were
And You were reaching down to me
You were everything I needed
I'm so glad You found me, Lord
I smile when I think about
The way You've turned my life around
I smile when I think about
The happiness in You I've found
I'm so amazed at what Your love has done
And when I think the best is yet to come
I smile!
'Cause You've turned all my gray skies
To the brightest blue, yes, You did
And my life feels like sunshine
And it's because of You
All because of You. I smile
I smile when I think about
The way You've turned my life around
I smile when I think about
The happiness in You I've found
I'm so amazed at what Your love has done
And when I think the best is yet to come
I smile when I think about
The way You've turned my life around
I smile when I think about
The happiness in You I've found
I'm so amazed at what Your love has done
And when I think the best is yet to come
I smile!
I smile!
 
sean58

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Godsgirl83 said:
Sean, Thank you for sharing your testimony! This song comes to mind as I am reading: (I put the lyrics below)


I Smile (performed by Russ Lee)
Lost and all alone
Looking for a reason
for being in this crazy world
Trying to go on, looking for the answers
To the questions and there You were
From the moment You appeared
Everything became so clear
I'm so glad that You're here, Lord
I smile when I think about
The way You've turned my life around
I smile when I think about
The happiness in You I've found
I'm so amazed at what Your love has done
And when I think the best is yet to come
I smile!
I smile!
Wandering the dark, lost in the confusion
I thought I was losing my mind for sure
I searched with all my heart, looking for direction
Something to believe in and there You were
And You were reaching down to me
You were everything I needed
I'm so glad You found me, Lord
I smile when I think about
The way You've turned my life around
I smile when I think about
The happiness in You I've found
I'm so amazed at what Your love has done
And when I think the best is yet to come
I smile!
'Cause You've turned all my gray skies
To the brightest blue, yes, You did
And my life feels like sunshine
And it's because of You
All because of You. I smile
I smile when I think about
The way You've turned my life around
I smile when I think about
The happiness in You I've found
I'm so amazed at what Your love has done
And when I think the best is yet to come
I smile when I think about
The way You've turned my life around
I smile when I think about
The happiness in You I've found
I'm so amazed at what Your love has done
And when I think the best is yet to come
I smile!
I smile!
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I'm overwhelmed by the kindness on here :) I love the lyrics and the tune, think I may have found my new go to tune for when I may be feeling a bit down... Any other suggestions for Christian music would be gratefully received... Love, light and Peace...
 
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sean58 said:
I'm overwhelmed by the kindness on here :) I love the lyrics and the tune, think I may have found my new go to tune for when I may be feeling a bit down... Any other suggestions for Christian music would be gratefully received... Love, light and Peace...
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What style of music do you enjoy? pop, rock, classical, country, etc.................
 
sean58

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Godsgirl83 said:
What style of music do you enjoy? pop, rock, classical, country, etc.................
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Godsgirl83 said:
What style of music do you enjoy? pop, rock, classical, country, etc.................
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I like pretty much everything really, I love piano based tunes as I love the clarity of the notes but music has always been my thing and I listen to every genre. Love surfing Youtube and just following the links. Probably not helped you much but any and every suggestion you can make will be appreciated...
 
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sean58 said:
I like pretty much everything really, I love piano based tunes as I love the clarity of the notes but music has always been my thing and I listen to every genre. Love surfing Youtube and just following the links. Probably not helped you much but any and every suggestion you can make will be appreciated...
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:) I LOVE music, MANY styles. I'll send you some links later this week. It's Sunday night 4pm for me, so Supper and getting everyone ready for back to work/school. Also, there is the Christian Music Forum on this site, you might find stuff in there.
Blessings!
 
tourist

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You feel lighter and happier because you prayed for God to heal you and invited Him into your heart. My wife had an epiphany of some sorts to years ago about salvation. Afterwards she cried and thanked God for coming into her heart too. I enjoyed your testimony very much.
 
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I heard a singer once sing; "...they asked me how it happened, how I knew it was real, I said 'well I was there when it happened, so I guess I ought'a know'."
 
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