I am struggling with sexual sin

For years now, since i was a little girl, i dealt with sexual sin, i started thinking about it and watching porn at age 14, i finally gave it all to God this past summer. And i was over 4 months clean of not doing anything sexual, the temptation were really hard but i managed. Then last night i went out with a guy and things went way to far. I lost my virginity to him and i feel so disgusted with myself for doing this. It was the one thing that I felt like i had control over but i just lost myself. I know that God has forgiven me and everything but I still feel so much shame. I can't even begin to describe my shame at this point. I wish i could take it all back. I'm so disappointed with myself.

Father God please forgive Masone21 and bless so that she does not fall into this sin again. Lord bless Masone21 with your forgiveness hesling and love. Lord let Masone21's soul and body , praise you. Please bless this prayer request, in Jesus loving name, Amen!

Watching or interacting with porn in any shape or form, changes the way we think, and changes the chemistry in our brain. We start to view people as 'things', rather than humans with feelings etc.
You don't say how old you are, are you very young? If so, you need to confide in a trusted older family member such as an Aunt, or your pastor for example. Talking about things helps alot.
There are a few people on here struggling with porn & addiction. Roughsoul1991 put a whole speel on a thread here re porn, but I don't know where it is, otherwise I would re-post it for you. You can find his name & click on it yourself to contact him.
I wonder who introduced you to porn, or did you start watching it yourself?
Losing virginity is a HUGE thing in our culture. There have been countless movies re it and books, etc. People go on about it like if you don't lose it, you are somehow weird or 'damaged'. There are people that still traffic virgins so they can be the first to have sex with them - in the most horrid circumstances imaginable for these poor girls - it is all part of the porn & human trafficking culture. Losing your virginity is not usually the wonderful thing we see in popular culture and movies. I even know people who were married that couldn't cope with losing their virginity. And if you are still a virgin in high school or college (university), then you are held up for even more ridicule.
I think the main thing here is to get older kids educated when they are young, and become prepared as much as possible for marriage. There are many good reasons to wait for marriage before losing your virginity.
We all make mistakes. You may not even realise you could have been talked into losing your virginity by this bloke. Males in our culture I've noticed are pressured by their friends to lose their virginity any way they can. I certainly hope you weren't forced in any way, because if you were, I'd be contacting the police. I also hope you used something as well? If you didn't, please go get tested for STDs and probably a pregnancy test would be a good idea too.
TBH, I doubt you will see this guy after this has happened, or see him much after that. Men like that are only out for one thing: they will never treat you like a person, only as a possession or thing. Do not keep going back to these men - they don't care about you as a person with feelings & hopes & dreams.
I think giving yourself to someone should be special & this obviously was not special for you.
Do not dwell on the past. There is nothing you can do about it. If you feel God has forgiven you, then that is a start.
I commend you for struggling against all of these temptations, as there are so many in life, and you are being as strong as you can. Well done for being so honest!!
Please talk to your close family member, pastor or a sexual health counsellor - there are free, confidential ones you can call. I'm down under in Oz so don't know where you are to recommend any? Write a journal as well to get all those feelings out too. There are also porn addiction websites you can join and get free counselling as well I believe, which is what you need.
Do not feel that you are alone! There are always people who can help you.
I will pray for you. Keep in touch and don't despair - remember: we all sin & we have all made mistakes!!

Forgive yourself and start again. No one can judge you for what youve done. Its between you and God. Find a wholseome lifestyle but dont beat yourself up if you fall. we all fall. we all blunder. but we have to pick up the pieces and struggle on. good luck.

"Let us pray to fully understand, you, I and everyone have made wrong choices, it's part
of life, we are human. Anytime and every time we make a wrong decision, hopefully we
have the ability to recognize the wrong and learn from it. And, pray to learn to turn to the
'principles' Christ taught of. Let us pray to let go of the past, or the past will not let go of us.
Let us pray not to 'beat' ourselves up by dwelling on things done, learn from it and strive
to live more on the 'principles' Christ our Lord taught of, and it works so long as an honest
effort is put forth in so doing...believe it!
I pray this will be a positive learning experience in your life, and all is well."
'Amen'

Thank you so much, this was so encouraging. I feel like telling my parents would only make things worst at this point. We do not see eye to eye on topics like this and they would not understand it at first which would do more harm than good. I do have 2 trusted adults in my life that i feel comfortable talking about with this. One lady I met this summer is encouraging me and is the first person I told after it had happened, and the other person i plan on telling is my mentor.
So many things went wrong that evening, unfortunately he didn't use a condom so i will be going to get tested. I'm still trying to process this whole situation and am going to figure out how to deal with it. I finally accepting that i can only move forward with this and learn how to cope. I want to be able to turn to God with this issue and not deal with it myself.
I think i feel God's forgiveness, The next thing is to learn how to forgive myself and he will help me with that I am going to move forward instead of dwell on it.
Thank you so much for your prayer, advice and encouragement. It helped more than you will know!
God bless you!!

Thank you so much for your prayers!!

Thank you for the encouragment. I am really struggling with forgiving myself right now, I want to move forward and with the help of God, i know i will.

Thank you for praying! Appreciate it

None of us are perfect and as the Bible says, sin is sin. Once you sincerely ask God for forgiveness and He has swept it away, what good is it for you to still feel shame. Don't listen to that voice it is contrary to God's promise and good will toward us. Jesus paid the debt for our sins, God bless you!