to be accepted for a season felt like what it must feel like to have friends - but now it must end.

a group of people are getting ready to tell me that I am no longer needed, so I have been told. My "friend" has been told to break things off with me and he has been planning how to do it. As perhaps they have too. In reality their crisis is over, my season of usefulness has come to an end.
Endings are hard. In Ecclesiastes there is a time for everthing. And a season. A time to love, a time to die, a time to build up and a time to tear down. It hurts endings - the feeling of being valued even if it was forced is over. Were they just using me , i know that in a way they were, but from my perspective as it was for God's purposes it kind of cushions the rejection as I was doing what I did to show the love of God or to share it. TIme has moved on and my services are no longer required, and it will leave a hole for a while as for a while I felt some acceptance it was like having friends again or what it must feel like to have some - now it is ending it hurts, I pray that God will bring renewal with another season of doing something else in some capacity somewhere in the world.

We do get the wind knocked out of us once in a while. You were showing God's love, leave the results to Him. He will not let this temporary darkness last long.

Who told you this?
This is very surreal, and don't make much sense.

Ecclesiastes 3
A Time for Everything - There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them ...
So I speak of seasons. One is ending. Doesn't matter who said what. I express pain. I hurt. I lose but I believe. I trust in God, I will wait to see where the Spirit leads me next. One Season ends another begins so is life ....

thank you for your words of compassion.

Beacha, this sounds like you are considering ending your life. PLEASE DON'T.

Instead, call a neighbour, a pastor, or even 911. Don't try to face these feelings without any in-person support.

Have you lost your job?

So you aren't asking for biblical advice or help, you are just emoting. There is nothing anyone can do with that.