I can't stop being so..

so... distant. This is probably a fragment of my mind, that I should just...leave there. But it's beginning to cut into me. I find that I'm increasingly not present, whether im in conversation, or a situation (that would be considered enjoyable), and oftentimes when reading the bible. I simply want to escape, and I am genuinely ashamed of this.

I'm 23, a sensitive soul, and I have no hindsight to help me approach this. I genuinely care for others, as part of my work and as part of my being,

as part of my work (at the hospital)**.
I do love God, and I do love people, my patients and you guys here ❤️... but, I also want to run if that makes sense?
I know it doesn't
🙃

Are you able to get enough sleep?

I hope you didn't have the killer "vaccine"?

Yes. It makes perfect sense. P!nk wrote a song about that. (It's also about the vaccine - "Instead of making me better You keep making me ill...")

[Verse 1]
I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me
I think I took too much
I'm cryin' here, what have you done?
I thought it would be fun

[Pre-Chorus]
I can't stay on your life support
There's a shortage in the switch
I can't stay on your morphine
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's bein' a little bitch
I think I'll get outta here

[Chorus]
Where I can run, just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear, you're just like a pill
Instead of making me better
You keep making me ill
You keep making me ill

[Verse 2]
I haven't moved from the spot where you left me
This must be a bad trip
All of the other pills
They were different
Maybe I should get some help

https://christianchat.com/christian...se-covid-vaccines.198460/page-10#post-4560331

The thread you're looking for

I think so

Well.. forget i said anything

When you're feeling distant or that you want to escape, where is it that your mind wants you to go instead?

I'm genuinely asking and not trying to be sarcastic or anything like that.

Do u get time work out and be with nature?

People in caring professions can sometimes pay a price for their love. When I get like that it is usually from stress, concern, pressure, or what is otherwise known as burn out. Have you had any fun? Taken a vacation? Done something just for yourself lately (it's not a sin)? Maybe you need to break the routine a little.

Just know that folks here love you and many will keep you in their prayers.

I used to be the same. It's because of being self conscious. You don't need it. Ask Lord Jesus to set you free. He has me. It may take a while but He will do it.

The care professionals are underpaid in the uk. Companies that have directors have all the money.

Wow, now that folks, is intelligence. He/she recognizes that they don't have the background, years of experience on this earth to properly diagnose what's going on. If ONLY I had that kind of wisdom at 23!

Ok buddy, here's what I recommend from my experience. Cut yourself off from the news, number 1 - whatever's going to happen is or isn't going to happen without your stressing over it. #2: Get involved in music. I don't care if you think you can sing or not; personally I believe everyone can - it's just this stupid culture that makes people think only people with good voices deserve to be heard.

(Personally, I recommend Kenny Hinson/Southern Gospel).

Become a prayer warrior. Praying for others is a great stress reliever, and it highlights areas in your own life you should or shouldn't worry about. And prayer is so POTENT - God hears and does care! Oh yes, he does answer! It's the most important job in the church!

Maybe for practical applications, I should've put this number one: Focus on one thing at a time. That really really helped me after I had a stroke last year. What are you going to do now? Next? This helps at work or home.

And I don't care how tired you feel, stay busy. Sure schedule some laying around time, but stay as busy as you can. Really helps sleeping. And don't be afraid of sleep aids.

All of this is my OPINION - I'm not a doctor or psychologist - only speaking from my hindsight!

Buck up - Christ wins in the end!

Wow - you are SMART! Great answer! BTW, had both shots - still alive.

That's a good question, it's okay i know you're not ingenuine.

I imagine all kinds of places, typically heaven-inspired but not always. I suppose what they all have in common is that love adds up to be love (in the 1Cor 13 sense). I don't think I'm very good at coping with the fallenness of this world...but I'm trying.

Thank you, I love them back and will pray for anyone that needs it ❤️

I appreciate your insight. It could be burnout in part, although I've had this before work. My fun is usually simple, piano, outdoors, doing something for someone etc. but I've found myself distancing from those too. Still, you're right, it could be good to go back. I'll try anything

Thanks gideon

There's nothing to be ashamed of. When I read your post this verse immediately came to mind.

Psalm 46:10
Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!

Been there.

Done that.

Even the people in my "happy place" didn't like me.

lol.

Seriously, though (not that I was necessarily joking above), I hear you.

What you're experiencing probably just means that you have a good heart.

This world can be tough when we have an inner understanding of what God originally intended it to be and we realize how far removed it is from that.

That said, we do need to cope in this world, and one piece of spiritual armor that God has provided for us is what the Bible calls "the helmet of salvation" (Ephesians 6:17) or, more specifically, "an helmet, the hope of salvation" (I Thessalonians 5:8).

You mentioned a 1st Corinthians chapter 13 kind of love, but that chapter also talks about "hope".

Hope is likened to a helmet in that it is what God ordained to protect our minds in this fallen world.

I'm going to provide you links to 10 short messages on the topic of "hope" that I believe will help you, even as they helped me many years ago.

Each message is only about 11 minutes long because they were originally given as short radio broadcasts over a two week span (10 days).

I hope (I couldn't resist...lol) that you'll take the time to listen to them.

Here are the links:

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+7cacb4a

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+5c16acc

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+20007cd

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+f6ae3b3

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+51da78c

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+ef7dffc

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+f26cb9e

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+e65be07

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+02a9aa9

https://subsplash.com/derekprince/media/mi/+6aaefee