Hi Isaiah
it was a real blessing to read what you said. I have been walking with the Lord for 26 years or more now and have suffered many trials. I would say that finding a good church where they really do preach the Bible and they have the love of God in them is very important. You need the prayer back up and also you will be a blessing to them just by being there. It will also regularly feed you, also.
It’s true what others have said here, that we totally depend on Him in all things. I am very encouraged by listening to Charles Stanley on Youtube.
Also the Bible tells us to be filled with the Spirit, and I do ask Him to fill me, throughout my walk it is something I do, because it says that the true worshippers worship Him in Spirit and in Truth.
Most importantly is reading the Bible... I don’t always find this easy... I often ask Him where I should read from or to help me read; I can get easily distracted. The difference though, reading the Word makes, is phenomenal, and there are times when I’ve really got into reading it and it’s been so amazing, and even speaks to me about personal stuff going on in my life. The deeper I study, the more blessed I get, very often. Also the more I seek Him in prayer, with Him as my First Love, the more blessed I am🤗
He will help you, just keep asking. Keep loving Him, keep trusting Him. Keep your eyes looking to Him, trusting, no matter what the circumstances in life are. God bless you. And well done for asking this👍