This is but another confirmation that you are a True Child of God. Often we find men found to be feeling left alone and without the support and company of others. Jesus was one of them when His disciples couldn't or couldn't stay awake with Him. Paul was abandoned by all in the Province of Asia, and then there was king David . . . a preimage of Jesus Himself.
Be thankful that you meet the description of a Child of God!
And by the way, I feel the exact same way as do you. I have been abandoned by 95% of both sides of my family. It doesn't feel good, but I understand that God loves the poor and oppressed . . . and that's us, Oblio!
John 15:19
King James Version
19 If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.
The tests, suffering and trials has a good effect on us.
To depend more on God, to test if you love God, to hate this sinful world, to look forward to seeing face to face with God.
No more sin and suffering.
Watch out for self-pity.
Romans 9:22-23
King James Version
22 What if God, willing to shew his wrath, and to make his power known, endured with much longsuffering the vessels of wrath fitted to destruction:
23 And that he might make known the riches of his glory on the vessels of mercy, which he had afore prepared unto glory,
Hebrews 11:24-26
New King James Version
24 By faith Moses, when he became of age, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh’s daughter, 25 choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God than to enjoy the [
a]passing pleasures of sin, 26 esteeming the [
b]reproach of Christ greater riches than the treasures [
c]in Egypt; for he looked to the reward.