I struggle often with the subject of forgiveness. I earnestly desire to forgive, say I forgive, but notice differently when taking notice of feelings. With remembrance, ever being an instigator, my heart races, my face becomes flush, and my temper quickens as these old wounds are brought to my line of vision.
What helps me "let it go" is by asking God, as did Jesus, as did Stephen and others, to forgive them. I explain that as they, like we all shall, give an account of all our deeds, whether by thought, by word, or by action, let nothing of what was done, said, or thought of me be held to their charge. I explain to God, I do want to forgive, and am attempting to do my best, but just in case my efforts are not successful, I need God to be my back-up.
I understand this could be a reliance on the flesh, which I am working on. I just remind myself I have forgiven them even though it does not feel like it, and God knows of my effort.
But then I think of Jesus. Although I am not well versed in Bible matters, I feel my knowledge is at least average, especially for one that has not attended church for decades. My learning is through study and the internet, like now. To my knowledge, and correct me if I am wrong, Jesus never said, "I forgive you."
Please provide references of why I am wrong. Thanks in advance.
What helps me "let it go" is by asking God, as did Jesus, as did Stephen and others, to forgive them. I explain that as they, like we all shall, give an account of all our deeds, whether by thought, by word, or by action, let nothing of what was done, said, or thought of me be held to their charge. I explain to God, I do want to forgive, and am attempting to do my best, but just in case my efforts are not successful, I need God to be my back-up.
I understand this could be a reliance on the flesh, which I am working on. I just remind myself I have forgiven them even though it does not feel like it, and God knows of my effort.
But then I think of Jesus. Although I am not well versed in Bible matters, I feel my knowledge is at least average, especially for one that has not attended church for decades. My learning is through study and the internet, like now. To my knowledge, and correct me if I am wrong, Jesus never said, "I forgive you."
Please provide references of why I am wrong. Thanks in advance.
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